I agree. We lose a lot of time & effort in life, trying to hide who we are. I'm DL, and have been since just beyond age two. I never thought I'd live my life loving diapers, hoping to grow out of it, but that just never happened. I binged & purged a few times, but it never left my mind. In my teens I came to completely accept that they were a part of me forever, but I kept it as my biggest surprise secret. No more guilt, but always a smidgen of shame... I managed a relationship & marriage (28 years, so far!), and the roller coaster of all of it (kids, jobs, houses & cars, family & friends), and, finally, FOR MY SELF & SANITY, I went 24/7 about 3 years ago, and have never looked back. Like Spaz, you could be next to me in the grocery line, and not have a clue. I drive big rigs across the country every day, seeing & interacting with dozens of people, in close proximity, and no one has ever implied they knew. The best advice is just to ACCEPT that this is YOU, and manage the issue, the same as an incontinent would. They exist throughout life, and, yet, none of us know who THEY are. That should tell you something! Welcome back to reality!