I love my partner. I feel like I'm leaving a piece of myself behind when we're apart. It hurts me every time she is upset. The very last thing I want to do is hurt her. But it makes her feel sick when I wear diapers.
She knows that I feel a need for them, that they help me when I'm stessed. She has told me that I can wear them whenever I want, just not to bed. She says that I shouldn't let the way she feels stop me, but I don't want to do that to her.
Add to that the fact that we have an almost three week old daughter. For now she is too young to notice, but what about when she is older? I don't want her to be embarrassed by her father.
I want to wear diapers, especially to bed. I'm not sick. I'm not breaking any laws. I'm not hurting myself or anyone else. But I still have to hide who I am, to protect myself and the people I love.
I just don't want to hide anymore.