Hey everyone. I know it's been a long time since I've posted on here and I'm sorry to have it be about such sad topics.
So recently my caretaker (mommy, big 'sis, we never really decided) got involved with another guy. Understandably she decided not to partake in our activities any longer since it does have a physically pleasurable aspect of it to me and she isnt comfortable with that when she's in a relationship. Before I continue just know that I completely understand why she feels this way and I completely support the decision since that's the way she feels.
I was recently talking with some friends (who know about my AB/DL side) about how I feel in this situation and I realized what it is that I lost that makes it so hard for me to accept the situation. For the longest time I thought it was just not having someone to do stuff like check and change me or just give me direction in general but I don't think that's the largest part if it.
The biggest part of what I miss is the physical contact with the other person. I'm talking about simple stuff like being held, having my head scratched (I am also a bit of a diaper/babyfur), and laying my head down on someone's shoulder. I can't replace that and I'm having an incredibly hard time getting around it. So much so does it bother me when I think about going into little mode (and just generally) that I have a very hard time getting myself in the mood to regress or even diaper up. It's also lead me to sleep with my plushie every night (or at least I would put my money on that being the cause or at least the catalyst) even when I'm not regressing or wearing.
I don't know if any of you have been in other, similar or maybe even identical positions before but if you have I could really use some advice right now. If not, thanks for taking the time to read this all anyway; it's nice to have a place to vent at least =)