The below post is centered around gender identity and BDSM dynamics.
"You can't be a transman and a sissy!" I'm so tired of hearing this. I have had more than one person tell me that because I am a non-transitioning trans cross dresser. Then I have had more than one "Why don't you just say you're a girl/stay a girl?" from inquiring Daddy Doms, especially when they find that I am comfortable with the female parts of my body sexually.
I'm a FtM transman in my day-to-day life -- outside of work -- that is much more feminine than other males. My little side is sissy girl. Being a cross dressing trans individual I find that you are met with more hate and confusion by those you bring around you. I cross dress to present myself as female when I work because it is easier for me in family and professional life and I don't care about pronouns. Stuff like that doesn't bother me. My family would take issue with me being transgendered and they are very important to me so it is easier this way and I can buy cute dresses.
Then you add all of the above that to the fact that I have been Daddy in the past (which I absolutely adored) but I am looking to expand on an occasional Mommy role as well. This is more due to my curiosity in breast feeding as I was raised by a hucow and it is a very natural topic to me. I've been met with even more upset by littles that don't know how to take my cross dressing or gender identity. My last little was confused by my dressing and she didn't want anything to do with me ageplaying or being little at all.
I am a boy. I am just a sissy boy. A cross dressing boy. A girly boy. A boy that likes dresses. But still a boy. My clothes don't make my gender.
I just feel lost, misunderstood and alone.