Well, I've finally truly accepted myself as being transgender, I'm still in the closet about it, and plan to keep it a secret until I get my own home.
I've started accepting myself for who I am, in private I act like my true gender, releases a lot of stress, I've been keeping a stash of clothes for when I need them.
I've also been privately feminizing, what I mean by that is shaving, growing my hair long, and doing what I usually do, like cross dress.
I am, who I am, nothing can change It, I still feel a little guilt, but I can't hide this forever.
All these feelings are so confusing, I like men, I'm female, that's all there is to it.
I don't know why I feel so bad, every time I see a female better looking than me I get so jealous, and when I see a nice dress, I really want it, but I pretend I do argh.
I'm guessing these feelings are normal for transgender people, I feel so bad for hiding it from others, but at the same time, I don't want to risk judgement.
I really hate my body atm, I think this is the root of all my sadness, or something. welp.
Any tips on how to deal with this guilt? I have kind of came out, and told someone, but they kind of disconnected themselfs from me welp.