So I have no idea why, but I have tried to keep this a secret from this forum. I am in the military and am what most would say very successful. The problem that I am currently having is that I just recently returned from another deployment, but this time we lost a guy (that I kinda knew) and a couple other guys were severely injured (that I really knew).
I have no idea why, but this time around I feel really guilty that I am a diaper lover. I know that this time is different because of the injuries/ death, but why does this make me feel different when it comes to diapers?
Unfortunately I don't even know what to ask on this forum, but I am hoping that even bringing it up will help me. I have been struggling with this for the last few months and have unfortunately turned to alcohol......
If you have been in this situation you probably understand me when I say that I love being deployed. I know this is crazy because it does cause severe distress on my wife and myself, but I am looking forward to the next deployment.
I am so sorry that in this post there isn't even a question, but I don't know what to ask. If anyone has experience with a situation like this at all I would greatly appreciate what you found helpful. If you don't want to post a message to the public, you can always PM me, or email me [email protected]. I have had a physiologist, but did not like them just as an FYI.