I need to put my frustrations and questions down somewhere so I thought this would be a good place to do it.
At the moment I have so many emotions going on in me with my DL side. I love being a DL. In fact I have decided to go 24/7 for the next week and see how I get on. So far it's been great. But it's really lonely. My wife is fully aware of me being a DL and sort of accepts it in my opinion. Well she says she does. I'm pretty much allowed to wear when and wherever I want to. But here is the frustration part. I would love her to be more apart of my DL side. She started to by allowing me to cuddle her in bed and she would do the same. But that has stopped. As soon as I get close to her I get pushed away. I don't know what the reason for the change is but it has changed.
I have asked her to visit ADISC to see what others points of views are and a place for her to ask questions and have an outlet about the situation but again she has pushed it to once side saying that she has other things more important to do. That to me is like saying that I'm not important to her. Don't get me wrong in anyway, I love her very very much and I know she loves me too.
I'll be honest and say that I want to have her change my nappy or even have her put me in a nappy at some point.
I was sick not so long ago and was wearing my nappies and I asked her to please just once to change me. But to no avail. She said she would do anything for me and if that is what I want she will do but will not enjoy it. To which I said no. I'm the type of person that if you going to do something for me you need to mean it.
Sooooooo frustrating. I think I just have the patience and want her to be more involved quicker. I know that isn't the way to do it and I need to let her get used to the idea on her own. But when I don't see any improvement from or anything been done on her side, I get really impatient and frustrated.
Now a question
I sooooo want to get onesie shirts. Because I want them would that make me more an AB. I mean not by wearing them but, more like wanting them?
If there are any South Africans reading this, have you got onesies? If yes, where did you get them from?
I look forward to your replies and advise.