For a few days now my heart has been in legitimate pain. It started when my fiancee and I breaking up finally set in and old memories of my other exes flooded my mind. Is it normal for it to hurt for several days? Should I seek medical attention? I'm just concerned about my own safety which is new for me to be honest.
I don't want to seem overdramatic, I'm probably just overreacting but I just wish the pain would stop. I try to exercise as much as I can but for some reason I just can't run as far as I used to, is that something that would correlate to this? I'm going to assume that it is related. I know I know... Time heals 'all' wounds but it really doesn't for me. I need to be restored, talk about things, get my heart back to where it should be. I'm still writing songs, still thinking about getting back into art, and I really want to learn how to play the guitar.
I'm sure at some point my heart will feel fine but I figured I might as well make a post about it to open a discussion about matters of the heart. I'm making sure to give myself plenty of time before I even consider dating someone (unless someone randomly changes how I feel about it which is not likely). I do miss being in a relationship, having someone to give my heart to, and just having someone to love. My constant mistake it seemss, is finding damaged girls who are either worse off than I am, or just about the same. I need to find someone like me, but not exactly. I have zero expectations when it comes to women. I just do what I can and hope for the best. I digress, I have a lot more thoughts in my head that I need to express.
But I'll save that for another time since I don't want to make too many posts too soon. Hopefully I will be able to buy some diapers as I haven't worn in quite some time. I'm going to do my first online order soon. Probably ABUniverse or whatever works for me.