What Skeeter said. Binge-purge, not healthy, and really expensive.
My suggestion, if wearing for a day or two satisfies you, then commit to wearing a few days more a couple of times (a week or two, I did two weeks straight), even though you don't want to. It kinda helps to get over the shame or uneasiness by just making it feel normal. If anything though, you should really force yourself to stop tossing them, this side of you is probably not going away, and it is really expensive to just toss out perfectly good diapers.