My then fiance admitted to me about 5 years ago that he enjoyed wearing diapers. We talked for hours and I decided that I was so in love with him that I could stand by him and we would figure this out together.
I didn't know this about him when we started dating. I thought everything was great. I was so happy. I knew within a couple months that this was the man I was going to marry. He is my best friend. He proposed and I said yes. We started planning our wedding and everybody was excited for us.
One night we got into a big fight. I always felt like he was holding out on me, then he told me. I can still see those words on my iphone screen like it was yesterday. I was and still am very hurt that he lied to me and didn't trust me. But now I don't trust him like I did in the first year of our relationship.
We got married and it was beautiful. But now I wonder what my role is? Wife and best friend or mommy. I do want to be a mom someday, I just don't think I want to be one to my husband
We keep getting into fights about this subject because I can't get over how hurt I am. I know that it took a lot of courage to come out to me especially since he doesn't express himself very well. After he told me I did think about breaking up but I said to myself he loves you and you love him. I don't want to give us up yet. And we both have worked hard to get over this bump. I have kinda accepted our life and I do want to know more from him. I'm just scared because this wasn't the life or marriage I thought we would have. Whenever I read stories or my husband and I talk about my stomach does flips.
I do want to get pass this so we don't fight anymore about this. I just don't know how I can get over my trust issues and try to get back to the way we were just with diapers. Please help us!!!