It Seems as if they Are in an oposite World when i Dream about them, its Never nice. This Morning i Woke up early because i had a Dream that my dad wouldnt let me have any food. Even worse i had one Ages Ago with my mom who was trying to literally Stab me in the back. Another one is when my mom Or dad is Shouting me and i Try to go to them but i am literally Stuck in bed only for their voices to get progressingly louder. I Used to have Dreams where my dad Would repeatingly Slap me.
They were Nice Parents when they Could but they Found it Hard to keep their cool due to me Having aspergers, being young, basically beimg incontinent, not talking much.
They used to slap me and say " Are you asking for a slap!?" When i did something wrong well my dad did this and both Parents actually slapped me. My dad comments about Kids Calling them little s##ts and commented about how they all Needed a slap. That's why i can't stand really British accents and i Even went to Great lengths to Try and get rid of mine. I Cant it really sucks. I have Never been abused with a Iron, Knife Or hard object. My Parents were actually Nice when i was behaved.
My mom, she has Type 1 Diabetes and when her blood Sugar Goes Low, Shes nasty, she told me to go away and stuff. Later on recently she told me she told me to go away because she didnt Want me to See her like that. I dont Believe that and i think she made that up so she Can be horrible. But i actually Seen her blood Sugar Low but Thats not an axcuse to be horrible.
Dad has a very loud Voice when he Shouts and due to Having aspergers i percieve noise loud but not speech. All i Hear is "arrrrgh!" When he Shouts me and when i dont come immediatly he gets louder and scares the living daylights out of me.
My Parents Arent abusive although when i was deeply depressed they tried to find out what was wrong, i couldnt Tell and they yelled at me that i wont have any luxeries ever again and i Would go to the Loony bin! These Dreams Are disturbing how Do i get rid of them?!