I live in the Raleigh/Durham area of North Carolina and work in the IT industry in the area. Originally from TN I moved to NC with my family when I was six, so I've been here most of my life. I love the outdoors and as such went to Appstate University in the mountains of western NC where I snowboarded, hiked, camped, swam, and generally tried to be outside as much as I could.
I also discovered my love of diapers my freshman year when I came across a diaper website and became intrigued! It took me several months to get the courage up but I ordered some diapers online and fell in love. I would bring them to the private showers we had in the dorms and wear in secret. As time went on I wanted to share this with someone but was frightened to death about being found out, so I bottled it up.
I remember thinking, "what normal guy wears diapers? There must be something wrong with me" Ugh. There was no one I could talk to about it. Fast forward a few years and my girlfriend discovers some of my diaper pictures on my computer. She shares them with my fraternity and her sorority. Long story short, my parents eventually found out and they forced me into therapy.
It was traumatizing. Literally. But I managed to keep showing my face in public, going to events and I refused to run and hide. Random people would say cruel things in public, my "brothers" made fun of me behind my back and I left my gf on the grounds that I was a "freak" and there must be something very wrong with me. The therapist, after eight months, said that diapers will always be a part of me, that there isn't anything wrong with it, and that as long as I don't let it control my life he didn't see anything wrong with it.
That experience still has it's claws in me. I have issues opening up to girlfriends and the few that I have come out to about my ABDL side (mostly DL) have judged me and left or said they accept it, but eventually changed their mind and left. It's really depressing. This isn't the focus of my relationships, but it IS part of me and I want to be accepted for the whole picture, not just part of me. I started seeing a sex therapist after my girlfriend and I split this past January. It's been really positive and I'm finally becoming more confident in my diaper side.
I have a few AB tendencies insofar as I like to snuggle and be "mothered" and have that safe, secure feeling. Only once before have I had that experience and I really liked the intimacy of it. To be diapered in that situation would be heaven to me
Other than my ABDL side, I'm very active and outdoorsy. I've continued hiking, snowboarding, swimming, running, and participating in community 5/10k's and GoRuck events. I have a few rental properties that I like to maintain along with my own home and I enjoy gardening and landscaping too. I read every night on topics from sci-fi/fantasy, history, current events, disaster scenarios and survival, spiritual topics, and more.
About four years ago I enlisted in the military partly due to my desire to serve and to keep the tradition my grandfather and father set. I love it and I'm so glad I joined. I'm your guy-next-door type but with a diaper side! Abena m4s are my favorite and sometimes I wear goodnites when I'm too lazy to tape a diaper on lol.
I'm looking for friends, acceptance and understanding, and maybe a future partner if I'm so lucky!