Hey everyone, I have a little bit of a problem.
My girlfriend and I are planning on moving into an apartment at the end of the Fall 2016 semester. We've budgeted literally every expense into an Excel spreadsheet and figured the exact "break even" amount that both of us have to make to equally contribute. She's currently working and saving large chunks of money and I'm currently looking for a solid job after doing lots of freelance stuff and odd jobs.
Here's my problem. I've held down "real" jobs before, namely a certain American big-box retail chain, which may or may not have a bulls-eye logo. The thing I couldn't stand was an 8 hour shift, as it left me with WAY too much time with my thoughts. Beyond that, the monotonous labor day in and day out was really doing a number on my mental state, as I am diagnosed with depression, O.C.D., and anxiety (not trying to fish for pity, sorry).
The cycle I was stuck in was
1. I'm very broke and very depressed.
2. Oh great, I have work today.
3. I'm at work stocking and straightening shelves, my O.C.D. is in overdrive.
4. This is going to be the rest of my life isn't? I'm stuck here.
5. Clocking out, this job sucks, and I am very depressed.
6. Start at step 1.
I've identified that the actual setting of the work plays a huge role in my outlook towards it, so I've gone out of my way to apply places that were smaller (both in physical size and corporate structure), friendlier, and more laid back. The only real thing I'm still worried about is how do I handle an eight hour shift without going crazy? When I get bored, my thoughts really start to spiral after a little while.
Overall though, I'm staying up to date on my meds, seeing my doctor regularly, and generally handling my symptoms very well right now. So there's the good news! I'm just at a transitional point in my life and need some advice from my older peers who have held down jobs and moved out before.
Thanks for reading, and I really appreciate the help <3