So I have fallen again. I am so depressed and suicidal. I am laying here in my diaper and pacifier in mouth and really crying like a baby.
I have "regressed" so much these last couple of days that I don't notice when I wet. It is like nothing matters.
I hate myself for needing to be a baby just to survive.
I am overwhelmed. I wish I could either die or be a baby 24/7.