Hey everyone, hope y'all have a great day!
I am a diaper lover who wear diapers for a variety of reasons including comfort, sexual arousal etc. etc.
Im in my late 20's and I have been wearing diapers on and off for some years now. In the beginning I had a hard time with letting go and with wetting my diapers but I can now wet whenever i want to aslong as i am standing up, which has been fine for over a year.
The thing is... I have now started experimenting with being able to pee in other positions than just standing up - for instance while sitting and laying down - My body has slowly accepted that its okay to wet while laying down for instance while laying down on the couch watching a movie.
However, I have went back to my "more traditional" way of wetting which is wetting while standing up.
The reason is that I am "afraid of wetting the bed" - let me explain...
I usually go to bed so that I can get a 7-8 hours of sleep - however in the last 2-3 years I "only" get around 5 hours of good sleep before I sorta wake up because I have to pee alot (no matter how hydrated I was before going to bed, its always the same). I am just so tired and in some kinda sleep-coma stuck inbetween being awake and being asleep because of my urge to pee. However I am too lazy and too tired to actually get up and go to the bathroom, so i just keep "sleeping"
And this is where my worries come in- I am afraid that if I keep training being able to pee in different positions during the daytime hours - for instance keep training wetting my diapers lying down - that I will eventually start to just "let it flow" in the early morning hours when i am in my trance of being stuck in between sleep and being awake, having to pee, but being too lazy to go to the bathroom - i am afraid that my body will just let go because it has learned that it is okay to pee while laying down (I am 100 % continent in bed and only wear diapers to bed occasionally for comfort and has always been fully continent - its like my body just blocks off for the flow of pee in the night when i lay down. Its like my body knows laying down = no peeing)
I hope it makes sense..?
As most people recommend, I should not try to break something that is working (being continent in bed), so do you guys think its an irrational worry that my body will get so used to being able to pee laying down that it might happen that i let it flow and wet the bed in the early morning hours when im too lazy to go to the toilet or do you think i should just relax and enjoy being able to pee in different kind of positions in the daytime and not think more of it?
Lately I have been worried about it and what to do which means im back to only use my diapers while standing up.
Do you guys think it is an irrational worry?
Thoughts much appreciated.
Have a nice day!!