When and how did you find out you weren’t the only one?

[babyv]

I’ve been an adult baby as long as I can remember- I believe eight years old is when it all started. For at least nine years after it started, I thought I was the only one with these needs and I really thought I was crazy! Then one day, while looking at books in a regular bookstore, I read about someone else wearing diapers and eating to be babied. It was a plug for “DPF” and it was life altering for me. The relief of knowing there were others like me was so impactful- I actually cried with joy! I found the address for DPF and immediately wrote a letter to connect. That was the first time I felt like I wasn’t losing my mind . So- when and how did you find out you weren’t the only one? I’d love to here your stories and how it changed your life. Please share if you’re willing

 

[Stevepw]

Early teens. I had started humping in my nappies at night and started to actually like wearing them.
The internet was in its infancy and one day we got dial up. I searched teenagers in nappies mainly to see if I wasn't alone in actually needing nappies and it lead to the abdl world.
Possibly dpf. Wetset and the (looking back at it) creepy deekers diaper page.
I wasn't alone! The relief was immense

 

[BabyHailey1977]

I found out I wasn’t the only one my senior year of High School. It was 1995-96. That’s when I found the internet and didn’t feel like such a freak.

 

[fullhouse6325]

i've known about the existence of abdls since i was in about 5th or 6th grade, but didn't realize i was one until later. i was really in denial.

 

[diaperedjoshua]

1997 I went on the internet in high-school and typed in plastic models. As in cars truck scale models. The search also brought up adults in plastic pants amd diapers. I was stunned I of course could not click on any of the sight being at school. But I was shocked to lean I was not the only one

 

[lilbabyjooce]

Sometime when I was in middle school, so probably around 2012/2013
I think I googled something along the lines of “Why do I like diapers?” I remember just the act of typing that up completely wracking my nerves!! I’m almost certain one of the first results was this site tho I never came back til a couple months ago. I’m pretty sure over the years I had looked up ABDL related things and this site was a result.
In the same search I found ABDL stories homestead and with hundreds of stories right in front of me I realized I was not alone!! Didn’t really know what to make of it then as a 12 year old but I didn’t expect there to be so many others!

 

[Lyric]

I first began to enjoy wearing diapers and rubber pants when I was 12 or so and started to play with myself after my mother had diapered me for the night. For the next several years until I stopped wetting my bed and wearing diapers I got aroused when my diapers were pinned on played with myself under my wet diapers. I thought there was something wrong about what I did, I didn't think other people still wet their beds and wore diapers in the first place and I was sure no one else also got off wearing wet diapers and rubber pants. But in my late teens I came across stories or letters and a couple of magazines mostly from wifes who wanted to know if there was something wrong or weird about their husbands who like to wear diapers or wanted their wife to diaper them. That's when I first realized I wasn't alone in the world.

 

[Cottontail]

Usenet fetish groups in 1994, specifically alt.sex.fetish.diapers. I was a college freshman, and had internet access for the first time. The web was barely a thing.

I was just browsing the list of groups when I found that one, and I was stunned. The conversation going on in it was of such a sexual nature that I was immediately put off, and I don't think I ever posted anything. Still, its existence was ... a big deal! I suddenly knew I wasn't alone with this.

 

[Forced]

Been into nappies and plastic pants since my first memories.
Being an oldie there was no www (as we know it now) until I was in 30s, I would read an occasional story in a girly magazine or a problem page subject in Uk retook newspapers but it never bothered me that I might be the only one into such things.

When I got first online a number of years ago I found the term ABDL (which I’d seen mentioned once before in one of the above referenced stories) and from that found adult sized products that would eventually lead to me resuming my love of wearing and wetting years after I stopped in my early teens

 

[dondl2]

It was not long after I purchased my first computer, playing on it one evening, what if I would type in diapers and adult diapers, and found adult sites and it was shocking holly shit wow, you know if you did that what a feeling. I could not get enough of trying to find every site I could.

 

[killahB]

1995, when I transferred from a community college to a university and finally had internet access. Finding out that I was not a solitary weirdo but actually a member of a fetish community was both a pleasant surprise and welcome relief!

 

[ShyBoo81]

This very same site was how I found out when I googled teens/adults wearing diapers. That was like 6 years ago, and I was just a lurker way back then! Was also reading ABDL stories on homestead around the same period too. Its amazing how far Ive come (and this community) since then, now that theres many ABDL content out there on the interwebs

 

[BabyDenise]

Not sure which came first as this was many years ago but the website DPF and the letters in Penthouse Forum magazine let me know I wasn't alone.

 

[DarlingSweetheart98]

Well, it was the internet for me that made me realize I was an abdl. I was in 7th grade on Yahoo Answers at the time and there was this girl asking if she was weird for liking to wear diapers. At first, the question freaked me out and then, something clicked in my mind. I realized I wanted to wear diapers. I realized why I always felt weird seeing my baby brother get his diaper changed was because I wanted to be the baby needing a diaper change. It just suddenly all clicked for me. But then, it freaked me out I wanted to be this way. And then, I found ADISC. I was able to use it back when it was teenage friendly. Then, this led me to sneaking ways to get ahold of diapers and baby items. Then, hating myself, but using them anyway and repeating the cycle. It took a long time for me to come to acceptance once I found out.

 

[Mathew]

I was aware that many adults needed to wear diapers for medical reasons but when I was in my early teens I discovered I was not the only one who just loved wearing. I found out a young lady friend of mine liked to have what she called diaper days. I noticed one day that she had a diaper on and commented on it. Her reply was simply that today was her day to wear and wet her diaper and that she enjoyed doing that fairly often. I told her about my love for diapers and it was great to have that to share with someone else for the first time.

 

[BalloonsAndTeddies]

I'd say I realized I wasn't the only one sometime around later middle school to early high school. Stumbled across ADISC (I think) and had my mind blown that I wasn't the only person in the world who was like this (and finding that out was extremely important, as I was suffering from extreme amounts of self-hate for being the way I was, finding out I wasn't alone helped me a lot)

 

[jamiejamie]

I was probably 14 years old and was using my computer with a dial-up modem. The kind that you have to use the phone line to connect to an ISP, makes lots of noises, and it can be pretty slow at times and it takes a while to load the web content. Out of my curiosity, I was wondering if there are adults who wear diapers- I discovered Diaper Pail Friends and Deeker’s Diaper Page and learned the term DL, AB, and ABDL. From that day, I identify myself as DL. That was back in 1993.

 

[babyv]

It’s interesting that a lot of you found out via the internet. As I mentioned above- my first discovery was in a retail bookstore- which was huge for me. But I would also say I had a “second” discovery that even had more of an impact and that was discovering this presence on the internet. When I saw there was an online society it really blew me away- gave me so much peace. I will always have great thanks for those who had the courage to create webpages at the very beginning of the clunky internet

 

[oreobaby89]

I was probably about 12 or 13 when I first realized I was not alone. I don't remember how I got there but I remember the first website I ever found was aby.com. From there I found a tone of other websites like deeker, baby junior, and so on. I can remember how exactly I felt but it was exciting to know and see others who liked diapers like me.

 

[lilstevie56]

I took in a room mate in the 80`s that stayed a couple months with me until he decided to move back to his city. He ask me when he was moving out if I wanted his porn mags .This cardboard box full of magazines . I said sure. Later on when I had time to look thru them all , I discovered all these magazines that were adult baby themed. Big letter titles like ADULT BABY and RUBBER NURSE and etc. My mind was like ding ding ding !!! Holy molly . I had never seen or heard about anything like this. I guess this was my aha moment. I didn't keep the magazines long because I was afraid my girlfriend would find them , so I read them and tossed them out. It turns out later when I told her about them , she would have liked them .

It wasn't until the ninety's when I purchased my first pc that I found the usernet stuff with the help of a friend and really discovered there was a whole community .