DLBIG
I identify myself primarily as a Diaper Lover (diaper fetish) while wanting occasionally to Role Play as a little boy.
Diaper Lover
I regularly enjoy wearing diapers, generally for sexual reasons, but also for seek of comfort and wellbeing. Diapers became a strong part of my sexuality through puberty; it’s my beloved personal sexual fetish object.
People who have fetishes have a strong sexual arousal to objects and non-genital body parts. Fetishes start in childhood for reasons that are still technically unknown.
This fetish for me is non-exclusive; while I enjoy very much when my fetish item is involved in sex play, I can function and enjoy sex without it. I do not desire the “diaper” more than I desire my “partner”, it’s not a competition.
It seems this strong sexual fetish, that arousal and pleasure, despite its confusion, will maintain its strength well into the later years of my life, like most fetishes seem to do!
I enjoy diapers for sexual arousal and gratification, but also the sense of soothing and comfort that wearing brings, while enjoying using them for their intended purpose. Wetting my diaper is a sensual experience. I enjoy the sense of release that comes from emptying my bladder into the soft fabric of the diaper, making it warm and wet.
Adult Baby | Age Play | Role Play
I engage in Role Play or Age Play rather than a true mental regression to Adult Baby.
I don’t have interests in expressing a childlike side of myself, act as a baby, babble as a baby, play with toys, crawl, etc. but I enjoy wearing baby-type clothes, use a pacifier, drink from a bottle and/or the intimacy of breastfeeding.
I wish for a Dominant Mommy / Little Boy (DM/LB) interaction; which is a role play dynamic of a female partner in a dominant role of « Mommy » and me in the role of « Little Boy. »
Role Play is choice that is very much under my conscious control. It may be an extraordinary strong desire or even a feeling of need, yet I know I’m playing the role of a younger version of my chronological age. It’s a mental space I enjoy being, where I feel safe, grounded, soothed, and nurtured. A form of Role Play, where I act out the role of a “little”. It’s something I like to engage in occasionally.
The snug fit of a diaper and even the smell of baby powder offer a sense of comfort, being nurtured, and safety. The softness of a onesie, footed PJ, a blanket, or perhaps a teddy bear brings back the tactile sensation, just like the diaper’s sense of comfort and safety. Sucking my pacifier or even drinking from an adult size bottle is soothing and so calming.
I did not choose to be ABDL | It’s not a lifestyle.
Being AB/DL is not something I chose, nor something I can’t get ride of, fix, or cure. This one thing that everyone from this community have in common. It may decline and flow at different point in life; however, it will not go away.
It’s not considered a mental disorder in need of treatments.
The psychological profession learned decades ago that those who are gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgender were not mentally ill and therefore could not be cured. After all, you cannot cure someone when, technically, there is nothing wrong with them.
That’s why sexual orientation and gender identity are no longer considered mental disorder in need of treatments. In terms of knowledge and acceptance within the field of mental health, the ABDL community is where the LGBTQ community were about forty to fifty years ago.
I’m personally not seeking treatments or looking for a cure, I accept myself as I am.
The need to experience.
Another aspect that is consistent for everyone in the ABDL community is that they need a place and a way to be themself authentically. The frequency of this and the way it needs to be expressed varies widely. Everyone will be different.
What is essential, is a place of true acceptance to learn to let go shame, embarrassment, guilt, and fear.
I would love to have my beloving wife participate, but it’s beyond her capacity to engage and provide what I’m looking for, and I understand. However, I make sure to find “me time” to be myself authentically.
Why and When
I don’t know why, like most if not all ABDL’s, but I’ve been attracted to diapers as long as I can remember, since I was potty trained I guess. Diapers became a strong part of my sexuality through puberty; it became my personal sexual fetish object.
I always thought I was all alone in the world with this strange attraction and desire to act upon it on a regular basis, until Internet arrived at our home; what a discovery and relieve. I also always thought this attraction would disappear with time, that it was perhaps a kid’s or teenagers’ thing, boy was I wrong! It will be part of myself all my life.
Was I potty trained too fast, was I ready, I don’t know. But I think I wasn’t ready as much as my parents were back then, with cloth diapers to wash, and my younger brother arriving in the family. I was 3rd of a 4 boys’ family.
On top of loosing my diapers, not to mention all the care and love a baby gets, I probably lost all my baby things also too quickly (pacifiers, onesies, PJ’s, bottles). Perhaps the reason I discovered in time that I like to regress occasionally to a “little boy”, so I can have my baby things again and find all the attention, the nursing and tenderness I desperately need.
Through a long journey I learned to manage my negative emotions I felt about myself. I learned to love and accept myself and built a sense of self-worth.
I’m happy…
Thank you Dr. Rhoda (You are not broken) for helping better understand myself
Diaper Lover
I regularly enjoy wearing diapers, generally for sexual reasons, but also for seek of comfort and wellbeing. Diapers became a strong part of my sexuality through puberty; it’s my beloved personal sexual fetish object.
People who have fetishes have a strong sexual arousal to objects and non-genital body parts. Fetishes start in childhood for reasons that are still technically unknown.
This fetish for me is non-exclusive; while I enjoy very much when my fetish item is involved in sex play, I can function and enjoy sex without it. I do not desire the “diaper” more than I desire my “partner”, it’s not a competition.
It seems this strong sexual fetish, that arousal and pleasure, despite its confusion, will maintain its strength well into the later years of my life, like most fetishes seem to do!
I enjoy diapers for sexual arousal and gratification, but also the sense of soothing and comfort that wearing brings, while enjoying using them for their intended purpose. Wetting my diaper is a sensual experience. I enjoy the sense of release that comes from emptying my bladder into the soft fabric of the diaper, making it warm and wet.
Adult Baby | Age Play | Role Play
I engage in Role Play or Age Play rather than a true mental regression to Adult Baby.
I don’t have interests in expressing a childlike side of myself, act as a baby, babble as a baby, play with toys, crawl, etc. but I enjoy wearing baby-type clothes, use a pacifier, drink from a bottle and/or the intimacy of breastfeeding.
I wish for a Dominant Mommy / Little Boy (DM/LB) interaction; which is a role play dynamic of a female partner in a dominant role of « Mommy » and me in the role of « Little Boy. »
Role Play is choice that is very much under my conscious control. It may be an extraordinary strong desire or even a feeling of need, yet I know I’m playing the role of a younger version of my chronological age. It’s a mental space I enjoy being, where I feel safe, grounded, soothed, and nurtured. A form of Role Play, where I act out the role of a “little”. It’s something I like to engage in occasionally.
The snug fit of a diaper and even the smell of baby powder offer a sense of comfort, being nurtured, and safety. The softness of a onesie, footed PJ, a blanket, or perhaps a teddy bear brings back the tactile sensation, just like the diaper’s sense of comfort and safety. Sucking my pacifier or even drinking from an adult size bottle is soothing and so calming.
I did not choose to be ABDL | It’s not a lifestyle.
Being AB/DL is not something I chose, nor something I can’t get ride of, fix, or cure. This one thing that everyone from this community have in common. It may decline and flow at different point in life; however, it will not go away.
It’s not considered a mental disorder in need of treatments.
The psychological profession learned decades ago that those who are gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgender were not mentally ill and therefore could not be cured. After all, you cannot cure someone when, technically, there is nothing wrong with them.
That’s why sexual orientation and gender identity are no longer considered mental disorder in need of treatments. In terms of knowledge and acceptance within the field of mental health, the ABDL community is where the LGBTQ community were about forty to fifty years ago.
I’m personally not seeking treatments or looking for a cure, I accept myself as I am.
The need to experience.
Another aspect that is consistent for everyone in the ABDL community is that they need a place and a way to be themself authentically. The frequency of this and the way it needs to be expressed varies widely. Everyone will be different.
What is essential, is a place of true acceptance to learn to let go shame, embarrassment, guilt, and fear.
I would love to have my beloving wife participate, but it’s beyond her capacity to engage and provide what I’m looking for, and I understand. However, I make sure to find “me time” to be myself authentically.
Why and When
I don’t know why, like most if not all ABDL’s, but I’ve been attracted to diapers as long as I can remember, since I was potty trained I guess. Diapers became a strong part of my sexuality through puberty; it became my personal sexual fetish object.
I always thought I was all alone in the world with this strange attraction and desire to act upon it on a regular basis, until Internet arrived at our home; what a discovery and relieve. I also always thought this attraction would disappear with time, that it was perhaps a kid’s or teenagers’ thing, boy was I wrong! It will be part of myself all my life.
Was I potty trained too fast, was I ready, I don’t know. But I think I wasn’t ready as much as my parents were back then, with cloth diapers to wash, and my younger brother arriving in the family. I was 3rd of a 4 boys’ family.
On top of loosing my diapers, not to mention all the care and love a baby gets, I probably lost all my baby things also too quickly (pacifiers, onesies, PJ’s, bottles). Perhaps the reason I discovered in time that I like to regress occasionally to a “little boy”, so I can have my baby things again and find all the attention, the nursing and tenderness I desperately need.
Through a long journey I learned to manage my negative emotions I felt about myself. I learned to love and accept myself and built a sense of self-worth.
I’m happy…
Thank you Dr. Rhoda (You are not broken) for helping better understand myself
- Location
- Montreal, Canada
- Country
- Canada
- Account Type
- Personal
- Gender
- Male
- Role
- Diaper Lover
- Little
- Orientation
- Straight
- Occupation
- Business owner
- Favourite diaper
- Rearz, ABU, and alike. Love thick white diapers. Mostly disposable but love cloth diaper too.
- Personal Space
- French Canadian
From Montreal, Quebec
- Communication Preferences
- Open to all subjects, ABDL and more
French or English
