Dave

I have realized recently that I feel like I can sort of work my way through all the bullshit in my head by typing it out and seeing where it leads me and basing my life around where my thought process leaves me. As in right now thinking and having to write down what I want to do sort of solidifies it to me. I know I sound kinda high and I was but now I'm not and I have been thinking about how my live in all honesty is in a downhill slide. I've never had a girlfriend, I am heavily into smoking weed...

I have been on many many sites throughout the time since I first found out about them. I think the first site I ever found was yep you got it yior however it turned out to be a little to perverted for my tastes do I moved on to DPF during the first two to three years I used many fake names because I was to afraid that someone might recognize me or something crazy like that. I was a moderator on a friends site for a little bit as well and I moved on to abdlstoryforum and after that I got into a...

Yeah going to the doctor again tomorrow gunna get some more meds yay. Other than that I just remembered that the night I was in the hospital I walked past the storage room and they had diapers in there. They were going to make me stay overnight bt they didn't. I was really close to telling then I was a bed wetter but I decided against it because it would be using them to fulfill a sexual fantasy of mine without them knowing it. Which would've been wrong but either way I didn't have to make the...

I think I might start hitting up this blog more often as it is a great way to relax from a hard day or week or month. For instance on here I can safely tell you all that two weeks ago I went to the Hospital with dehydration so severe I was fading in and out of consciousness and it scared my really bad. I have been sick for over a month now with "the common cold" and I am starting to forget what it means to be well, however I am choosing to take the attitude that this is just going to...

I have been wearing a mask to perpetuate the persona that people in my area believe is the real me. I feel like the mask is becoming like the mask in the Goosebumps book and it is getting stuck to me. I want to be able to be my self in college because no one there knows me or expects me to act that way that I am currently expected to act, but this mask is getting harder and harder to get out of. I hate this person that is supposed to be me I feel like two people stuck in one body. However one...