care_a_lot

I can't believe that you are gone. I can't stop thinking about you and thinking that maybe your just in the other room. I can't count on both hands how many times I have called you on your mobile only to have the message "you have reached the message bank of *inserts number here* will you please leave your message after the beep."

I can't believe that you are now on the other side of the earth. So far away from your little baby girl who wants nothing more than to be inside...

On Wednesday this week Mommy made the decision to leave Australia and go back to the United States. I cannot be angry with her for wanting to leave me. After all I can be a naughty little girl. But I just wanted to have someone who never got angry at me. Who would spank me when I started to run the house and would hold me. Telling me that its ok and that I'm safe and loved.

I made myself a promise at LAX international airport when we got taken away from each other for the first time...

Well I thought that I'd try and write in a blog again. I don't know how often I will write in this, but hopefully it will be more than my last one (which wasn't all that often) I find this site to be a safe place that I can talk about me without really hitting my head against the wall too much cos it tends to hurt after a while. (see this little guy)

Well I'll see what happens next time I write