When you realise how insufficient and pointless everything, is why have hope, we are all going to die, our lives are all meaningless in the end, because when we die that is it.
Without friends my legacy won't ever survive, I'll be another statistic, people will forget me, and move on, even while I'm alive, I'm insufficient useless and my whole life is pointless, if people don't want anything to do with me, or bother remembering my name what is the point.
A friend of
Well that failed, I'll try to off myself at the end of this week.
I don't know what to do, and can't think clearly due to this debt hanging over my head.
bright side is, debt ends with me, once I'm gone, it'll vanish.
But maybe I'm not thinking rationally.
I don't even know what to do at this time.
I appreciated the help however, but i can't think of anything.
well I got abused again today, not going into detail, but lets say I got reminded of how stupid and retarded I am, and how much of a problem I am.
I just want to die, fuck this shit, I don't deserve this abuse.
Even had flash backs, to past abuse, fuck this is terrible.