There really isn't much to say really. I made a decision recently and i'm going to follow through with it. It's probably not what some people would want so that is why i'm not going to say exactly what it is I decided. However, before that I would like to apologize to the everyone on the forum, I know I have been quite the pain in the back side to deal with. I really do wish I was a different person. I wish I had been more kind, polite, and understanding. Thank you all who have been there for me,
Here is to writing about random things! Cheers!
So for me, life in general has been pretty crap. I now often rely on friends online to get me past to the next day. At least that is certainly how it feels these days. I used to never really rely on others and felt I didn't want to burden people with my issues. While at the same time I would get irritated by others who did get help from others. I seem to have some pretty big jealousy issues. I would also feel alone and abandoned by those
I actually don't normally write journals but, well it's probably time to start doing so I guess. At the very least, if all else fails and I do something drastic maybe someone will be reading this while I am gone, and will have at least left some sort of mark on this little blue marble, called earth.
There are many mistakes I have made in life. Many regrets that I have that weigh on me daily. I suffer greatly from depression and borderline personality disorder. I also never made it