Laceys Big Change

[Mandi]

Lacey's Big Change was written and copywrited to buttercup-baby.
All characters, places and events are pure imagination. Any resemblance
is a coincidence. Do not alter story in any way.


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Chapter One

"Hello, Mr. Dawson, Can you send Lacey down to the office with all her things, someone is here to see her"

"No problem, she will be there in a few seconds:"

"Thank you. Lacey, you can go, do page 67 for homework"

"Ok no problem"

I wonder what was going on. I never get into trouble, why are they sending me down to the office? With my stuff too, well at least I'm getting out of the rest of the day, it’s only first period. A half hour of school, that’s the best way to do it. When I got down to the main office there was a dingy, proper looking woman there who came to greet me.

"Lacey?"

"Yea that’s me, what’s going on, why was I called down to the office?"

"I'm going to need you to come with me"

"What the Hell?! I'm not going with you, I don’t even know you! You’re crazy lady!"

"Lacey calm down, I have some very bad news but I would like to discuss it in my office, where you will be more comfortable"

"I'm comfortable here thank you very much"

"I'm afraid there has been an accident, and your father didn’t make it, I'm sorry"

I couldn’t believe my ears, what was I hearing? Not my father, it can’t be!

"Is this some kind of sick joke?"

"Lacey, please come with me to my office, we will discuss it there"

I felt defeated, what was I supposed to say to the news she just gave me? I followed her to her car, a nice new black Lexus, its interiors smelling of vanilla. The car ride felt like it took years, but really took only moments. She stopped at a big white building with a great big sign that read "Children’s Aid Society" She parked in a spot only a few feet from the main doors. I silently followed her through the double doors, up an elevator and to a room marked "Mrs. Rivers". I trailed behind her through the door and was issued to seat myself in a big swivel chair opposite of hers.

"Lacey, As I already told you your father has been in an accident and unfortunately died instantly from impact. I am sorry about the news but we will have to get right down to business. I believe your father will be easier to talk about now then it will later once the news has sunk in. I have already looked through all of his files and he has left an accidental life insurance policy that you can claim when you are 21. Seeing as how you are only 13 and cannot live on your own we have some details to work out. Do you have any family that you can stay with?"

"No"

"None at all dear, I'm sure you have someone, aunts, uncles, cousins?"

"No one at all, my father doesn’t really have any friends that I know of and it’s always been just him and I, we never visited anyone and he has never said anything about relatives"

"Okay thank you Lacey. There is a couch in the next room with a television. You can go into there until I come get you."

I walked into the next room and flopped into a big squishy green couch. I turned on the television to Ellen, I liked to watch her. I wasn’t in the mood and ended up staring into space for almost three hours when the door opened.

"Lacey, I have good news"

I stared at her with a blank stare; I don’t think anything could be good at the moment. I think she sensed my feelings and continued on.

"There is a couple who is looking to adopt a girl between the ages of 12-15, and as you fit the category they are willing to come and meet you today! This is great news as you have an unusually short wait. Of course, if you are not comfortable with being in a permanent family already we can always put you in foster care until you adjust, and then find you a permanent home. So what do you say?"

Frankly, I didn’t know what to say. I could meet the people and if I didn’t like them I could go to foster care, but why would anyone want to move around from house to house?

"Sure, I will meet them"

"This is great! They will be here at Five o’clock. If you want in the mean time, there is a McDonalds across the street, I could give you five dollars and you can get yourself something to eat."

"I have money"

"Oh, Okay, just make sure your back by five."

"Okay"

I walked down the hall to the elevator and then out the big double doors. I didn’t know what I felt about moving in with a new family, or even meeting a new family so soon, one that can take the place of my father so quickly. I walked in to McDonalds, noting how cold it was. School is over in a week, the weather was hot and humid, and walking into a cooled place was always refreshing. But today it wasn’t, it seemed like my whole life was turning cold, nothing was going right. I ordered a Big Mac combo and sat down at a table and ate. I stayed there until two o’clock, sipping on my coke. My butt was getting sore from the hard seats so I grabbed myself an Oreo McFlurry and headed back across the street.

"Hello Lacey, you can go sit where you were before, just make sure not to spill any of that ice cream on the furniture."

I turned on the TV and started watching one of my favorite shows, the Weekenders. I know I'm a little to old to watch cartoons but after school shows are boring, and cartoons catch your attention so quickly. After I finished my ice cream I walked back into Mrs. Rivers’s office and asked her where the bathroom was. She pointed down the hall. I walked to the bathroom and did my business; I had to pee real badly. While I washed my hands I stared at myself in the mirror, trying to see if I was the reason my father died. I wasn’t too bad in the looks department. I was 5’1" and about 110 pounds. I was the average size for someone who just turned 13. I had strawberry blonde hair that went a little past my shoulders and had a nice curl right at the end. My eyes were like saucers, full of sadness at the moment, and were bright green. My eyes tended to change color, usually a green but they always turn bright, bright blue when I cry, I liked that about my eyes, I didn’t need contacts to make them look pretty. I also had a few freckles on my nose that ran along the top of my round cheeks. I wasn’t developing in any way yet. It kind of made me mad. All of my friends already had there periods and breasts, but I didn’t. The most I could wear was a training bra, but what was the point if I didn’t need it? I didn’t have hair on my legs yet or under my arm pits, but I also didn’t need to worry about using deodorant because I never smelled. Some people thought I was pretty, but I thought I was just average.

After I was done washing my hands I went back to watch TV. When Lizzie McGuire was done I heard the door open.

"Lacey, I would like to introduce to you Mr. and Mrs. Grandee"

A young looking couple walked in and…Oh My God! My Teacher? My gym teacher was the person that was going to adopt me?!

[Mandi]

Chapter 2

“Hi Lacey, We’re the Grandee’s. You already know me of course, and this is my husband Adam.”

“We are so sorry to hear about your loss Lacey, we will try our best to make you feel right at home, and help you in any way we can.”

I stared at them in disbelief. In what alternate universe do children get adopted by their teachers? Wow, I can’t believe what is happening right now.

“Lacey, say hello” Said Mrs. Rivers with a reassuring smile.

“Hello Mr. and Mrs. Grandee.”

During the time that they were there Mrs. Rivers asked them many questions about what they do for fun and what they plan on doing to entertain me. In turn, they asked me about my hobbies and interests. The interview lasted for about 45 minutes, which seemed like 45 days to me.

“Lacey, could you please go out into the hallway so I can have a word with Mr. and Mrs. Grandee?” said Mrs. Rivers, which sounded more like a command rather than a question.

I waited outside for 10 minutes when Mrs. Rivers came back out and asked me about how I felt about the Grandee’s. I liked the idea of staying with someone familiar but also didn’t like the fact that it would be awkward. I didn’t feel ready just yet be in a permanent home, but it was better than moving from house to house.

“They seem like a nice family, I would be delighted to stay with them, permanently”

“Perfect, you can go back and have a seat on the couch, the adults will work everything out. You have nothing to worry about.”

There is nothing to worry about. Yeah right! My father just died and I'm being placed with my teacher. What happens to my stuff? How far away will I be from my old house? Will I see my friends? So many questions kept popping into my head I was beginning to feel ill. I went in and the ‘adults’ were in Mrs. Rivers office dealing with what I assumed papers.
I lay down on the couch and began to watch cartoons again. Seven o’clock Mrs. Rivers came to wake me up and told me I was going to be spending the night there until someone can bring me to my house to gather my belongings to move in with the Grandee’s. She led me to a room with 8 cot-like beds, 3 of them being used by other confused looking children. She gave me a pink night gown I could put on, since I didn’t have any clothes except for the ones I was wearing. Once I was changed and laying down in the cot I stared off into space. Not dreaming, but pondering. What was my life going to be like now? I didn’t have anyone, except for my teacher. And who said they were really going to like me? Or treat me right, the way I should be treated? Unwillingly I dozed off into a deep sleep, which I found unusual, since it was only 9 once I was settled and I usually go to bed around 10:30 or 11:00 o’clock. I needed the sleep though, there was a big tiresome day ahead of me, which I wouldn’t find out until later.

“Lacey, Lacey wake up”

I opened my eyes, groggy and irritated that I was shaken awake, I didn’t like mornings very much.

“What time is it?”

“It’s six o’clock, but I thought you would like to be woken up before the other children.”

“I don’t like mornings lemme sleep”

“Lacey you had an accident”

“What?”

I sat up in the cot and could feel, and smell the predicament I was in. I peed in the bed. What was happening? This has never happened before, and especially shouldn’t happen to me, a thirteen year old! I was in a panicked state at that point. I covered my face with my hands and began to cry, not loud sobs but more of a soft drizzle of tears.

“I'm soo sorry! I didn’t mean to! I will clean it up I promise”

“Lacey it’s okay dear. This happens to many children, believe me, your not the first! Just go and clean up, your clothes were washed there on the shelf right next to you. The bathroom is right there, there is a shower with shampoo and soap, the towels are hanging on a rack above the toilet.”

“Okay”

“Better hurry up though, you have a big day ahead of you”

A big day? What did she mean by that? All I was doing is getting my stuff out of my house to bring to the Grandee’s. Oh well. I grabbed my clothes and hurried to the bathroom, so I could avoid being noticed by to many people, as the huge wet circle on the back and side of my night gown was very noticeable. I got into the bathroom and there was already a towel and a mini bar of soap and small container of a 2 in 1 shampoo/conditioner. On top of a towel was a flowered thing that I didn’t notice when I first walked in. I grabbed it and studied it closely. A diaper, those things you always see on TV, happynights or goodnights or something like that. Did this lady seriously think that I was going to wear that? She was out of her mind! One little accident and she starts to treat me like a 3 year old that cant make it to the toilet, yeah right, I'm 13! I got into the shower and washed up. I got out, dried and got dressed; luckily she included my underwear when she gave me my clothes. I grabbed the diaper and threw it into the waste basket next to the toilet. I put my towel in the hamper that was there and no that there was also a disposable tooth brush and a new dollar store brush I could use.
I brushed my teeth and hair and walked out of the steamy bathroom.

“All ready lacey, do you have everything?” Mrs. Rivers said giving me a quizzical look

“Yes, I do”

“Everything that you should have on, do you have everything I gave you?”

“Yes Mrs. Rivers I do” I said getting irked by her comments about the diaper.

“Ok then dear, you can go downstairs in the lobby and wait for Mr. and Mrs. Grandee, they will be here to pick you up and bring you to your house.”

“Okay, um, where is my backpack? It has my key”

“It’s on your cot”

“Okay thank you”

I walked over to the cot that had my backpack on it. They removed the dirty sheets and were letting it dry out. I sure did make a mess, there was a huge spot on it, that still looked soaked. I grabbed my backpack and went down into the lobby. Right when I got to the double doors Mr. and Mrs. Grandee’s car pulled up, an Ford Explorer SUV that was black. Mr. Grandee rolled down his window and motioned with his hand to come.

“Come on sweetie, hop in the back”

I walked to the SUV slowly and opened the back door to get in.

[Mandi]

Chapter 3


I opened the back door and got in, placing my backpack on the seat next to me.

“Hi Sweetie, how have you been holding up?”

“Ok I guess…”

“Well it’s a start, we have a busy day ahead of you, so since my husband can’t get the time off we can drop him off at work and then we can go to your house, does that sound like a plan?”

“Yes, that’s good”

“Atta Girl, that’s the spirit!”

I sat in the back seat, feeling awkward not knowing what to say, the whole car was silent, except small talk about work and business trips between my new ‘parents’. When the car stopped at a large brown brick building with a sign that read
“World Connections” Mr. Grandee got out kissed his wife and said goodbye to me, calling me kiddo.

“You can come sit up here if you want Lacey, that way it won’t be so lonely, sitting back there by yourself.”

I got out and then got into the front seat, after fastening my seat belt we were on the way to my house.

“Do you want to stop for breakfast?”

“Sure”

“What do you want; there is a McDonalds and a Burger King near here.”

“Umm, McDonalds is good, I like the Egg McMuffins”

“Me Too”

“How much longer until we get to my house?”

“About an hour, his work is pretty far away isn’t it?”

“Yeah”

We got out of the car when we pulled up to Mickey D’s and I went to get a table while Mrs. Grandee ordered the food.
While we were eating she told me that her husband worked for a large internet company and did a lot of traveling, he was rarely home. She said sometimes his work took him as far as Europe and China; I was amazed, I wish I could do something like that someday. She told me during the summer sometimes she went with him, which meant that we would have a lot of vacations.

“What would you like to call me Lacey? Mrs. Grandee is too proper, that is my mother-in-laws name, not mine. You can call me Angela and my husband Adam, or you can call us mom and dad, whatever you feel comfortable with.”

“Umm, can I stick with Angela and Adam for now?”

“Of course sweetie, are you ready to go?”

“Yup, I'm all set”

After we were in the car Angela turned on the radio and I snoozed off a bit. I can’t say I was sleeping because I had my eyes open, but I was completely out of it, not really knowing what was going on around me, I was thinking about the great times me and my dad had together.

“Lacey, what happened?”

“What?”

“Look what you did to your pants and the seat? Why did you do that?”

I looked down and saw that I had another accident, oh man, what was happening to me?

“I'm really sorry!” I said through sobs, although I don’t think she could understand me. I was red from embarrassment and tears streamed down my face. What was I supposed to do now; she probably didn’t want to adopt me after this.
She pulled over and looked at me right in the eye.

“Lacey did you know that you were going to the bathroom?”

“No, I'm sorry, please, I didn’t mean to, please don’t be mad, I will pay for your seat to be fixed, it was an accident!”
Maybe I should have worn the diaper that was put out for me at the Children’s Aid building.

“It’s ok Lacey; do you usually have problems like this?”

“No, I peed in the bed last night and that was the first time ever, and now this! I don’t know what is going on, I'm sorry”

“Don’t be sorry, you’re going through a tough time, I understand completely, if it helps at all I was a bed wetter until I was 15. I understand what it feels like.”

“I didn’t mean it”

“I know you didn’t, it’s really okay, but I'm going to need you to do me a favor”

“Okay anything”

“Can you wear protection for me please, that way it saves you the embarrassment of wet pants”

“What kind of protection? Like diapers?”

“Not exactly, we can get you something like a pull up if you want”

“Okay, I will, but will anyone notice?”

“No, not if it’s like a pull-up, come on, there is a Wal-Mart right there, we can get you a new pair of pants and some pull-ups.”

“I can’t go into there with wet pants!”

“You can wear my coat around you, it’s not noticeable in the front, and the coat will cover the back.”

Angela handed me her coat to tie around my waist and we headed into the Wal-Mart. First we headed to the clothes department and I got a pair of jogging suit material shorts, but it’s kind of stretchy. Then we headed toward the diaper aisle.

“Ok it looks like they have two choices for you. You can get goodnights and they have flowers on it, or you can get Tena pull ups and they are for adults.”

Mrs. Rivers had out a goodnight so I opted for that choice.

“I will take the goodnights”

“Okay, you would be a medium/large so let’s get you a package of those.”

“Those should fit, can we go now?”

“You can go to the washroom and change first, that way you won’t get a rash from your wet pants.”

I went to the bathroom with Angela and she handed me a plastic bag that she got from a clerk, I put my wet clothes in there, opened a pack of travel wipes that we grabbed, wiped myself, used a bit of travel baby powder and then opened the pack of goodnights. I took one out and looked at it. It did look thick in the crotch and in the bum, I put it on and it felt funny. It felt secure, warm, but was like a baby diaper.

“Does it fit okay?”

“I guess”

“Here let me see”

I opened the stall and Angela walked in and surveyed the goodnight.

“Looks like it fits good, turn around” She said while she snapped the waist band and leg closures. “Looks perfect, get your shorts on and let’s roll”

I put the shorts on, even though Angela denied it, you could tell my bum was puffier than normal. She grabbed the tags to the shorts the wipes, baby powder and opened package of goodnights and headed to the counter. I grabbed the bag with my wet clothes in it and followed her. The cashier gave me a funny look, knowing where the goodnight went and why everything was open. I just blushed and looked away, hoping she wouldn’t say anything. After everything was bagged and paid for we walked back to the car.

“So, how do they feel?” Angela asked me once we were driving again.

“They feel different, bulky, but warm and soft too.”

“So they feel okay?”

“Yeah”

“Let’s just hope they work”

“I sure hope so” I said while looking out the window, I couldn’t afford to have another accident, all of my confidence and pride will be completely destroyed!

[Mandi]

Chapter 4


20 Minutes later we arrived at my house. I was anxious, yet nervous to go into there, it was my house but why did I feel like I had no right to be there?

“Do you want me to come and help you?”

“It doesn’t matter” The words slipped out of my mouth before I could really think about what I was saying. Did I really want Angela going through my stuff, my personal stuff with me? I went to the kitchen and grabbed 6 garbage bags and went up to my room. Boy was I going to miss it; my purple and pink walls, my closet with my secret hide-away place and all of my furniture.

“Just pack what you need sweet heart, we will go shopping in a few days to redo the guest bedroom in our house.”

I started going through my night stand and my shelf unit, grabbing cosmetics, purses, journals and craft sets that I had bought over the years while Angela went through my closet and drawers and put all my clothes into garbage bags. In less than an hour I had everything packed that I needed to bring with me. I had 2 garbage bags of clothes, one of dirty clothes and shoes and 2 bags of everything else.

“Okay do you have everything that you need?” Angela asked me

“Yeah; do you want me to go make a pot of coffee for you, I'm going to go grab myself a glass of orange juice.”

“Okay, only make 2 or 3 cups worth though, that will be fine, while you do that I'm going to go put these garbage bags into the car.”

I carried down two garbage bags and put them into the front door. Then I went into the kitchen, made the coffee and poured myself some juice. I waited while the coffee finished and Angela poured herself a cup and we went back upstairs.

“I know this is going to be hard, but is there anything that you want of your fathers?”

“Yeah” I said while choking back tears.

I walked into his room and started to cry, it smelled like him, it looked like him, it reminded me of him, and I didn’t like that. In this room was everything my father was into, everything he was and wanted to be, everything that I wanted to be.
I sat on his bed and Angela sat beside me and tried to comfort me. I didn’t really want her too but having her hug me close made me feel a little better. I had to go pee, but I decided I was going to go in the goodnight. I didn’t know what it felt like but sitting there I couldn’t just go, I tried but it wasn’t coming out. Once I was calmed down I got up and went to my dad’s closet. He had a cedar chest in there so I pulled it out and once I had it open instead of sitting I crouched down. While crouching I tried to pee again and it started to come out; once I was done I then sat and it felt mushy. I kind of liked the feeling; it was warm, like a mushy pillow permanently on my bum. I went through the chest; it had all of my dad’s personal belongings; I started to get emotional again so I stopped and closed the lid.

“Um, this is all of my dads personal stuff, I want to keep all of it, can I just keep the entire chest?”

“Of course, we can put it into your room, would you like to get anything else?”

I thought, the chest had stuff from my communion, picture albums, scrap books, his diaries, places he worked, souvenirs from places we traveled, and I had everything I wanted except for one thing. I went to his dresser and opened his drawer. I grabbed his big t-shirt that I made for him when I was 8. It had my hand prints on it and said “I love you daddy” on the back. I put it on top of his jewelry box that sat on his night stand and put them both in the trunk.

“I'm ready now”

“Okay let’s go”

“Wait a sec, one more thing”

“What is it?” Angela asked with curiosity

“I had an accident” Which was kind of a lie, since I did it on purpose, but I didn’t want to say that.

“You can tell”

“How?” I asked, feeling quite embarrassed

“Your saggy in the front. Go to the car and get a new one, the powder and the wipes and go to the bathroom and change, I will bring the chest to the car.”

“Okay”

I went to the car and got the stuff I was supposed to. I went to the bathroom and pulled down my shorts. I felt the goodnight; it was mushy and did swell up a bit. I mushed it and finally pulled it down; it made a plop sound when it fell on the tile. I wiped and powdered, put the new one on and pulled my shorts up. I threw the old one in the trash and headed downstairs. I got a granola bar out of the cupboard and locked the door on my way out.

“All Ready?”

“Yeah, are we going to your house now?”

“We have to stop one more place, and then we can”

The car pulled out of the driveway and I wondered; where were we going?

[Mandi]

Chapter 5


"Now" Angela said, looking me in the eye."I know you probably don't want to do this, but we have to. We have to go pick out a casket for your father and identify his body at the morg."


I looked at her with what I can imagine are the saddest eyes anyone has ever seen. I didn't want to go see my father dead, or pick out a casket where he would be buried, it would only make the suititation permenant.


"Ok" I said quietly.


"We will go pick out the casket first"


We pulled up to a small funeral home and went inside. I was kind of out of it so Angela told the lady at the desk what we were looking for. We were led into a small room containing about 6 caskets. I picked one with a white interior and Mahogony wood. After we were done looking Angela talked to the lady again and had me sign a couple of papers. We went back to the car and headed to a big place, what I assumed was the morg. We walked in and while we were being lead to wherever my dad was I still had a little hope in me.


"Maybe he isn't dead, maybe they have the wrong person and he is just at work right now"

"Oh Sweetie, I wish he was" Angela looked at me like she could cry, although I didn't really understand why.


"Here we are, I will leave you two alone" The man said.


We walked to a steel table with a white lumpy sheet on it. Angela lifted up one corner and I couldn't believe my eyes, it was my father, my father! I started crying really loud, feeling terrible. I ran to Angela and buried my face in her and continued to sob while she held me.


"sssh, it's ok. It will be alright"


"No it won't" I pulled away from her. "I hate this, I hate not having my house, my father, I hate everything right now"


"It will get better I promise" Angela said in a reassuring voice.


I started sobbing really loudly and Oh My God, did I do what I think I did? I pulled away again and ran; I ran like there was no tomorrow. All I saw was flying colours, when I got to the car I stopped there. I did do it, I peed in my pants again, without even knowing it. I hated everything that was happening right now, I was disgusted with myself. I was still crying a few minutes later when Angela came out of the building, jogging to get to me.


"What happened sweetie, are you okay, why did you run like that?"


"I peed in my pants again! And I don't know why!"


"It's okay, we can go home and change, sssh, don't cry sweet heart, you can go lay down when we get home" She whispered softly into my ear as she was rubbing my back and hair.


We got in and I silently cried all the way to her house. We pulled into a great big house, it was a little old, probably 15 years, but it was really big! It looked like a mansion to me, with a balcony and everything. When I was getting out Angela told me to wait a minute so I sat there with the car door open. She went into the back seat and grabbed the powder, wipes and a goodnight and gave them to me.


"Go in and change, then you can take a nap, you look exausted"


"Thank-you" Was all that could escape my mouth.


We walked through a gate and into the back yard, and wow! Was it amazing!! There was a huge inground pool with a shed, garden, trampoline, fire pit with seats around it and a huge deck with a barbecue and a patio set. There was also a balcony in the back too. Angela opened the back door and led me through the kitchen.


"You can change in that bathroom"


I took the stuff into a bathroom that looked like a closet because the door was wood and slided just like a closet door, although it was big inside. I changed and threw the old goodnight into the trash, washed my hands and left the powder and wipes on the counter.


"I'm all done Angela"


"Okay sweetie come on" Just when she was about to turn around I hugged her, I think it took her by suprise.


"Thank you for taking care of me today, I really Appreciate it."


"I would help you any day my Lacey"


She picked me up and settled me right in front of her holding my bum with both hands. She grabbed the bottle of gatorade that she had sitting on the fire place mantel and managed to carry that and me up the stairs and into a HUGE room that was red and gold. She placed the gatorade down and then on the huge fluffy bed that was covered in a red and gold royal patterned duvet. She rolled the duvet down to the foot of the bed and covered me with a red throw.


"There you go, sleep well, get rested."


"Okay, thanks"


She smiled and walked out of the room.


I looked around, there was a walk in closet that was open, sliding glass doors that led to the back-yard balcony and 2 dressers, with a night stand on each side, a lamp on each then in one of the corners there was a stand up lamp, two gold coloured chairs (the couch kind, like a loveseat, but for one person) with a red throw on one, I was using the other with a table in front of them. I was looking out into the back yard while I drifted into sleep.

[Mandi]

Chapter 6

When I woke up I was a little disoriented. I looked around and saw that I was in Angela's room. As everyting came back to me I felt an emptiness in me. I lay in the comfy bed for several minutes before I decided I wanted to get out. My goodnight was wet, and was quite swollen, I could see that I peed alot, even the bum seemed mushy. I looked and noticed that the back of my shorts were wet, the goodnight must have leaked. I didn't want to go downstairs in wet shorts so I went down the hall and saw my bags at the door of the bedroom at the end of the hall. I went and looked into the bedroom, yipee, I got the bedroom that was attached to the front balcony! On top of my stuff was half the pack of goodnights, but that's it. I guess the rest and the powder and wipes are in the downstairs bathroom. I grabbed the goodnight and went to a door on the left side of the hall, the bathroom. I went in and took the wet goodnight off, putting it into the small waistbasket by the toilet. I looked in a cubbard and found a pile of towels and clothes. I grabbed a cloth, wet it and wiped myself. After the dry goodnight was on I took my wet shorts and the cloth and put them in the hamper that was in Angela's room. I went to my bag of clothes and grabbed the big white shirt of my dad's, and after taking off the small one I was wearing I put the large one on. I walked downstairs to find that Angela wasn't in the living room. I looked in the kitchen and she wasn't there either. I started to get scared, did she leave me here all alone in an unfamiliar house?

"Angela?"

"Angela?" I called louder, starting to cry.

"Lacey, your up, what's wrong?" She asked; like she didn't know!

"You weren't inside, I couldn't find you, I got scared"

"Oh there is nothing to be afraid of, Me, Adam, and a couple of our friends are outside, your dinner is on a plate outside, come on and eat"

She picked me up like she did when she was bringing me up to bed, and brought me outside. I lay my head on her shoulder and hoped that the tears that were in my eyes from before would dry up before anyone noticed. When Angela went outside I all of a sudden became very self-consious; aware that I was only wearing a large shirt with a goodnight underneath. You couldn't see the goodnight but it felt like everyone out there could. When she went to put me down I held on to her neck so I wouldn't drop, I didn't wanna go out there.

"I wanna sit with you" I whispered into her ear.

She didn't say anything but kept holding me. When she sat down I kept my legs around her waist. Now I was sitting on her lap with my head still in her neck and my back to the table.

"Teresa, Bill, this is Lacey"

"Hi Lacey" They both said together. I found out later that they were a married couple; Bill was Adam's business partner and Angela and Teresa were best friends.

"Hi" I said softly, lifting my face so they could hear me.

"Here's your food sweetie" Angela told me, while Teresa passed her my place, which was at an empty seat on the other side of the table.

"Im not that hungry" I said, looking at her.

"Will you please at least eat your burger, it doesn't have to be on a bun"

"Fine" I said, not wanting to argue. I put the burger on a bun anyways, It would be gross without it. I ate it in about 5 minutes, still facing Angela. She told me if I was thirsty I could go inside and grab a coke so I got off her and went to the fridge. When I came back I went right back to her and sat on her lap again, but this time I wasn't facing her and I was sitting on her knee. I listened to the adults talk and gulped down the pop. I went pee in my goodnight, Angela must have felt it getting mushy becuase she rubbed my back and when I turned around she gave me a smile. Oh well, I didn't wanna waste my time going to the bathroom, when there was a bathroom attached to my butt. After a little while longer I was getting restless.

"Can I go play on the trampoline?"

"Of course, just make sure you be careful, stay in the middle of it"

"I will" I said, getting up and walking over to the trampoline. On the way there when noone could see me I grabbed the front of the goodnight and mushed it. Hmm, pretty wet, put I could probably pee in it again, the one before was way more full! I got on to the trampoline and bounced up and down, forgetting that I was only wearing a shirt. I started doing flips and everything, wow was this fun!! When I did a set of 6 flips in a row I heard clapping. I looked at the patio and they were all watching me, I didn't realize that they were, and I was only wearing a shirt! Oh My God! I was only wearing a shirt, which means they all saw my wet goodnight! I didn't wanna make too big of a deal out of it, after all, I did have to cope with wearing them; but I didn't wanna jump on the trampoline anymore. I walked back over to the patio.

"I'm all done" I said.

"Ok sweetie, you were pretty good on that thing, did you have fun?"

"Yea"

"You were really good" Teresa piped up.

"Agreed, ok ladies, we're leaving now, we'll be back in a few" Adam said. Him and Bill got up and went out the front door and left.

"Where did they go?" I asked

"They went to a bar to meet a couple of their buddies, they will be back soon"

"Oh" Is all I had to say. "Can I have some maccaroni salad?"

"Of course, go grab a paper plate from inside, and if you want there is more pop in the fridge."

I went inside and grabbed a plate and another coke, got some maccaroni salad and gobbled it up, I guess I really was hungry.

When I was eating I had to go pee, but didn't want to go inside, and I also didn't wanna have an accident. My leg was bouncing up and down, then they were crossed, and I kept grabbing myself so I didn't go.

"Lacey sweethart, do you have to go pee?" I was quite embarrased that Angela would ask me that in front of Teresa.

"No"

"Well, I want you to go pee-pee before you have another accident, your already wet"

Oh my gosh! She was talking to me like I was 2! And in front of another person! Just so she would stop I went inside and went pee, changed the goodnight and went back outside to finish my food.

"Did you make it to the potty?"

"Yes" I said giving her a dirty look, although she chose to ignore it.

"Did you change into a dry diaper?"

"There not diapers, there goodnights"

"Oh yes, sorry sweetie, but did you change?"

"Yea" I said, still very perturbed.

While I sat eating, I listened to the conversation. Appearantely, Teresa was coming with us tomorrow to shop for my room and she was gonna help decorate. I also learned that Adam and Bill had to go into a town 4 hours away so me, Angela and Teresa were gonna go in our car and meet them there that evening. The things you learn when you have big ears.[] I also learned that my father's funeral was being taken care of by Angela and it was gonna happen in 2 days, that I wasn't so happy to hear. I was getting tired and was falling asleep at the table. Angela picked me up and took me upstairs to another room with a fouton in it. She pulled it out and gave me a pillow and blanket to sleep with. After checking to see if I was dry she kissed my forehead and sat next to me and rubbed my back until I fell asleep. As I lay there dreaming Angela and Teresa were in the living room talking about me.

"Isn't she precious?" Angela said.

"Yeah, she is really cute, like a little doll, but why is she wearing those pull-up things?"

"She has had a few accidents and appearantely wet the bed, it's a way to keep her dry. I would get her actual diapers so she didn't have to change as much but I doubt she will want to go into public in them."

"So get them for when she is sleeping, or car trips, stuff like that" Teresa suggested

"That is a good idea, it will probably cost me less."

"Yea, and you won't have to change her as much"

"True, but diapers or not, she is just the sweetest little thing, but she is acting younger than a 13 year old."

"Her father just died though Ang, be glad she is looking to you for comfort. I would rather have my daughter act younger than she is rather than have her rebel against me or something equally as terrible"

"That is also true, I am already attached to her"

"Hehe, she is a clingable person, she has a aura about her"

"Yea, she does"

The two went on and on about me until the boys got home and Teresa and Bill left. Angela and Adam went to bed an hour later.

I woke up in the middle of the night, afraid of the dark, especially in this unfamiliar place. I cried in my bed, rocking myself back and forth, trying to get back to sleep. I heard a light go on, a toilet flush and then saw Angela in my doorway. She didn't say anything, nor did I. She wrapped her arms around me and rubbed my back and rocked back and forth until I fell asleep again. Angela went back to her room to also sleep until the morning.

[Mandi]

Chapter 7


I woke up in the morning to the smell of bacon and eggs. I pulled down the covers to see that my goodnite was very full.
I mushed it around a little, it was still warm, I must have just peed in it. I still had dad's shirt on, I smelled it and had a few flashbacks. I remember when I was 6 he used to always put me on his shoulders and then walk around with me on them, it was always so fun. When I was 7 and lost my first tooth he took me out to dinner at a fancy resturant to celebrate. I missed him alot, but I didn't want to cry anymore, it didn't help any. I got out of bed and went downstairs to find Angela in the kitchen.

"Morning sleepy head." Angela said as she greeted me.

"Morning, what time is it?" I asked.

"Almost 9. Your breakfast is on the table right there, eat up and then you can go have a shower and get dressed. Teresa is going to be over in about an hour to come help shop for your room."

"Okay" I said as I sat down.

I ate all of my bacon, eggs and 3 pieces of toast, boy was I hungry. When I was done Angela took my plate and I went upstairs to have a shower. I took off the big shirt, and threw my wet goodnite in the trash. While I was in the shower washing my hair I heard someone open the door and two seconds later shut it again. When I got out I found a green sweat suit with a white top and a goodnite on the counter. There was also a brand new toothbrush and a hairbrush for me too use. I brushed my hair and found an elastic in one of the cabinets. I put my hair in a high ponytale, dried off and put the goodnite on. I didn't really want to wear it but it was there, and I didn't want to have an accident in my pants again. Once I was dressed with my teeth brushed I went downstairs and saw that Teresa was already there.

"Good morning Lacey, How are you today?" Teresa asked me.

"I'm good, how about yourself?" I asked in return.

"Doin great!" She anwsered.

"Hey Angela, I don't have any deoderant and I don't wanna be smelly today, can I borrow some of yours?"

"Of course sweetie, it is in my room on my dresser, go put some on and come downstairs so we can leave." She said.

I went back upstairs and went into Angela's room and found the deoderant. I put some on and went back downstairs. I got my shoes on and we all went out into the car. I got into the back seat since Teresa was with us. I didn't say much in the car ride, just made some small talk. We slowed down and backed into a parking space in front of Wal-Mart.

"Well, let's go to the bedding department first." Teresa said.

We walked to the back of the store and I was excited, I got to redo my room!! Yay! I was told I could pick out a bed in the bag. I was looking around and found a completely white bed in the bag with bubblegum bubbles all over it, it was really cute. It had a monkey blowing a bubble on the pillows and pink bubbles all over the blankie with monkeys on the sheets. I loved it! We then went to another part of the store and I picked out a bunkbed with a real bed on top and a desk at the bottom. Angela said that they because she was a teacher, she could get me a really good laptop and pay it off every month so it wouldn't be that expensive. We got bubble-gum pink paint and a border that matched my bedset. I got a pink beanbag chair and a pink area rug. My room was going to be really cool! There was even long curtians for the balcony door that matched my bedset. I kind of felt bad that she was spending so much money on me, but then again, it was her choice. She also bought me a dresser that matched my bunkbed and also a television stand. She got me a 27" tv that was on sale for only $150, that was a pretty good deal. Right when we were ready to check out Angela pulled me aside.

"Lacey, I have to ask you a question." She said to me in a serious tone.

"Okay, what is it?"

"Well, we are going on a car ride today, about four hours. I was thinking, would it be alright, and would you be okay with the idea, of you wearing actual adult diapers instead of goodnites. I know that they only hold about one accident, and I don't want you to have a leak."

"Umm, Yeah it is okay. But as long as when I get out of the car I can change, I don't want anyone to know about my problem."

"Noone will, they will also be good for bedtime."

"Yeah, I guess I can." I said to her. I wasn't really sure, but I didn't want to make her angry.

"Good girl, I am really proud of you for being such a big girl." She said and gave me a one-arm hug. I really hate when she talks to me like I am two.

I went with Angela to the diaper section really quick while Teresa got in line. We ended up picking out a small Cloud diaper. We got in line with Teresa, paid for everything and went outside. We didn't bring home the bunkbeds, tv stand or the dresser though, they were going to deliver that tomorrow. Luckily she had the SUV, she luckily could fit it all in one load. I was pretty smushed in the backseat, but it was a small sacrafice for what I was getting. On the way home we picked up some Burger King and then got to the house. We brought everything inside and ate in the living room. All of a sudden I had a strong urge to pee, I got up really quick, almost spilling my pop and ran to the bathroom. I tried pulling down my pants but I didn't make it. I just stood there and started crying frustrated with myself for not getting to the toilet on time. Angela came in and tried comforting me.

"Shhh, sweetie, it was an accident, it is okay."

"N-no it-t's not, i am su-such a bab-by." I cried to her.

"No you are not, don't say that hunnie, you are going through a rough time, it's okay, really, don't even worry about it.
Come on, just pull your pants up and when you are done eating you can try one of your new diapers."

"Ok-kay" I said as she wiped my tears with the bottom of her shirt.

We went out of the bathroom and I sat down and finished eating. This might sound weird, but even though I don't like having accidents, I do like the feeling of the wet goodnite. It feels warm and safe, like nothing bad could happen to me while I am in it. When we were all done eating (I had a whopper, yummy) Angela told me to go into her room and wait there. She came up with the package of goodnites, some baby powder and wipes.

"Now" she said "You can do this yourself mostly, I want you to take your goodnite off, wipe yourself, put some babypowder on so you don't get a rash and pull the diaper up. When you are done, I can help you tape it."

"Okay, that sounds good." I said to her. I took my wet goodnite off, and put it on the floor next to me. I wiped myself and rubbed some powder on. I opened the package of diapers and took one out. It was white and pretty thick. It had a plastic cover and two big white tapes. It was really soft inside. I opened it and lay it on the floor. I sat on top of it and pulled it between my legs then lay down.

"Okay Angela, I'm ready." I yelled.

She came out from the hallway and knelt on the side of me. She grabbed the front and adjusted the diaper a little. She did up the tapes and I got up.

"Awe, you look soo cute!" She said to me.

I just blushed and stood there. I put my pants on and Angela took my wet goodnite to throw in the trash. I grabbed the wipes, the package of Cloud diapers and the powder and put it in the bathroom. I looked in the mirror. You could definately tell I had a diaper on! My bumm was soo puffy! It felt so nice though! I pulled my pants down and looked at just me, I did look pretty cute in it. I looked like an oversized baby!

"Told ya you looked adorable!" Angela said from behind me. I jumped a little, I didn't know she was there! She scared me.

All I could do was blush. She picked me up and put me over her shoulder. I yelled at her to put me down but she carried me down the stairs, with my pants still around my ankles.

"OOh Angela she is soo cutee!!!" Teresa said when she saw my diapered fanny in the air.

When Angela put me down I pulled up my pants and sat on the couch. We just sat and talked for about half an hour when Angela said we should leave. She told me to go to the fridge, and grab the two gatorades that were in there so I had a drink. After I got that, Angela got a pillow and blankie for me in case I wanted to sleep, she also had a backpack for me with a goodnite, 3 cloud diapers and my cleaning stuff in it. I got into the car and set up my pillow and blankie. I put my backpack on the floor and my gatorades in the cup holders. I lay down and put the blankie over me. We started driving and about half an hour later I fell asleep.

[Mandi]

Chapter 8


When I woke up I didn't know what time it was or anything. I lay there for about 20 minutes just listening to what Angela and Teresa had to say. I didn't really feel like talking, and I didn't want Angela to know that I was up. I found myself thinking about my dad. For the rest of the ride I silently cried to myself. Thinking of all the things that me and my dad used to do together, I wanted him at my graduation, I wanted him to be a grandfather. Everything was just so surreal. I'm laying in the backseat of a car that isn't my dads, I'm wearing a diaper, and I am with my teacher. It was so confusing. I just want to die, that way I can be with my dad again. I know it is bad to think about that, because I do have it good right now, I am with a loving family, opposed to in an orphage, but, I wanted my daddy. I cried until I had no tears left. I hurt all over, especially my heart.

I felt the car pull to a stop and I pretended to be asleep again. Angela picked me up and carried me into a building. I opened my eyes just a little bit and saw that we were at the Hilton. Teresa had all the bags since Angela's arms were in use. Oh crap! I realized that I was in a wet diaper [I peed in it some time in the car] and there was people around! I know that the way I was being carried that people could tell. My pink skort just didn't cut it. I figured that it would cover the diaper better than pants, but when it is being lifted up by someone's arms it doesn't really cover anything. I was so mortified I didn't know what to do! I could get down and walk so noone would see the diaper anymore, but the people who already saw it would know, and I would be crinkly. Or I could just stay in Angela's arms and I wouldn't be so embarrased. We got up to the check-in counter, and they had to verify our information. Teresa was angry because they overbooked, and now we couldn't stay on the cooperate floor with Adam and Bill. Angela said that she was taking me to the bathroom, she grabbed my diaperbag and headed to the handi-cap stall.

When we got in there she lay me down on the ground. She pulled my bottoms down and undid the diaper. I was blushing, hopefully she didn't notice. She wiped and powdered me, and put on a new diaper. Ugh, I didn't want to wear another one, I wanted a goodnite! I couldn't say anything because I was pretending to be asleep, so it kinda sucked.
Angela set me on the counter leaning against her as she washed her hands, and then took me out to the counter again. I learned that we had a discount because they made a mistake, but we were staying on the 7th floor, instead of the 2nd.
We got into the elevator and into our room. I was put onto the bed and tucked in. I was hungry. I lay there for a bit just to make it like I really was sleeping then I sat up.

"Hey sunshine" Angela said to me.

"Have a good sleep hunny?" Is what I heard from Teresa.

"Yeah I did, I was tired, but now I am hungry."

"No worries" Angela said, "We were just about to wake you up, we are leaving for dinner in 10 minutes, as soon as the boys get here."

"Oh okay. Where are we going?"

"To a little resturant called the Grape Vine." Teresa anwsered me.

Me and my dad used to go to the Grape Vine all the time. Tears welled up in my eyes, I put my face into the pillow to hide my red, wet eyes.

"Awwe baby, what's wrong?" Angela asked me.

"Nothing"

"Sweety just tell me, c'mon I am here for you."

I sat up and looked her in the eye, she sat down next to me and started rubbing my back. "Well, it's just that me and my daddy always used to go to the grape vine for special occasions, that was our favorite resturant" Then I started crying even harder. She pulled me into a hug and rocked me. It made me feel a little bit better. I lost control of my bladder, but didn't even care. Angela wiped my tears away and sat me on her lap and cuddled me. The boys walked in, all ready to go out for dinner.

"There's my girl. How ya doin Lacey?"

"Good" I said in a muffled voice.

Angela gave him a look and he cleared his throat in a weird way and said it was getting late, so we better go. When I looked around the boys were dressed in business suits and Angela and Teresa were in dresses, I guessed I missed when they changed. I felt very childish, with just a pink pleated skort on and a t-shirt that said 'Sugar' on it, with some pink flip-flops on. I wanted to dress up too, but I didn't even have nice clothes to wear. Oh well. We got to the resturant and we were escorted to a table that was already full of people. I guess the whole company went for dinner too. I was the only kid, which made me feel even more small. When it was time to order, I was given a colouring page with a kids menu on the back. I ordered chicken fingers, with fries and a coke. I wasn't really spoken to except by Angela, Teresa,
Adam and Bill. The only time I was recognized is when I got a short introduction from Adam, but that was it. By the time dinner was over I ate all my dinner, had 3 glasses of coke, a piece of cheesecake and a bowl of chocolate ice-cream. I had a huge stomache ache. During dinner I peed in my diaper twice more, and I really had to poop.

"Angela" I whispered to her, tugging on her arm.

"Yeah sweetie?"

"Umm.. I gotta go potty" I said again.

"Just go pee in your diaper hunnie, that is what it is for."

"No uhh... I gotta....uhh... go poo-poo" I said in a nervous voice.

"Ooh okay, it is okay, you can go here, when you are done we can go change you"

"NO! I am NOT a baby! I want to go in the toilet!" I said that a little bit too loudly, and I got a few stares.

I was so embarrased! I ran to the bathroom and went into a stall! I remembered that I had to go poop so I pulled my skort down and started to untape the diaper but it was too late. I was so frustrated with myself, I can't believe I didn't make it! I just pulled my skort back up and sat on the toilet. Angela came in looking for me. She knocked on the stall but
I didn't say anything. She knew it was me and tried to get me out.

"NO NOT UNTIL MY DADDY COMES BACK! NOW GO AWAY!" I yelled at her.

I was so angry! It was her fault for making my dad die! It was all her fault. I didn't forget to tell her that when I yelled at her. That lasted for abotu 10 minutes. I wanted to run away. I ran out of the stall and tried to get out of the door but
Angela blocked it and held me in a tight hug. I punched and kicked her but she never let go. Finally I was so weak I just hugged her back and cried. I apologised over and over again, about how sorry I was. She said it didn't matter, just not to do it again. I promised that I wouldn't and she told me it was time to go. She walked me to the car and put me in the back seat, told me she would be right back and locked the car doors. I was kinda scared all alone in there, not to mention that I was uncomfortable, as I was in a poopy diaper, and it smelt. Angela got in the backseat with me, and then Adam got in beside her. Teresa was driving, and Bill was in the front seat with her. Angela cuddled me in the backseat while Adam cuddled her. It was like one big family.

I fell asleep and was carried in by Adam. The boys went to their room and left us girls alone. Teresa changed my diaper while Anglea had a shower, and I was put in just a nightie and a goodnite. I was tucked into bed and was ignorant to anything else that happened that night. It was a good thing too because during the night Adam and Teresa switched rooms. I don't know what happened, but I am sure that I wouldn't want to know.

[Mandi]

Chapter 9

When I woke up I was in the car. I sat up and felt that I was wet. I had to pee so I just let go. I felt down there and it was mushy; I was pretty wet. I sat up and Angela looked at me with a smile.

"Morning Sweetie, how did you sleep?"

"Otay... I'm still really ti-ti-reed." I said through a yawn. "Umm.. I need a.. uhh..." I could feel tears well up in my eyes... I still wasn't used to the whole diaper deal.

"You need a change?" Angela finished my sentence for me.

"Yes please." I said quitely, my cheeks burning with embarassment.
Teresa stopped the car and Angela and I got out and she lay me down in the back of the SUV and proceded to change my diaper. She commented on how I was getting a little bit of a rash and applied lots of cream so it would heal and not hurt. When she was done she just left me in my nightie and I hopped out of the back.

"Can you please sit in the back with me?" I asked Angela.

"Sure, no problem hunnie, I don't mind."

We both got into the back and I just set my head into her lap.

"Is today the day?" I asked her.

"Yeah it is, that's why we left so early, it is still only 6am." Angela anwsered me.

"Please Angela, I don't wanna do this! Please!" I started to really cry so I grabbed her close and buried my face into her stomach.

"You have to baby, I know, it was your daddy, it is going to be hard, but we have to. You know he will always, and I mean ALWAYS, be watching out for you!"

"Nooo. He shouldn't have died! It should have been me!" I screamed.

"Lacey, you are on earth for a reason! God doesn't want you to go; it isn't your time yet!" Angela yelled back at me. I started sobbing then, I hated when people yelled at me.

"Awwe sweetheart, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to yell, I know it is hard on you." At that she lifted me on her lap and I cuddled into her arms like a little baby. I tried to calm myself down, but it didn't really work. She ran her fingers through my hair and rubbed my belly. All though this I cried silently. I put my thumb in my mouth and after a half an hour I feel asleep in her arms, and it stayed that way until we got to Angela's house.

I woke up at the feeling of Angela moving me. I looked out the window and we were back at the house. I went to the back of the car and grabbed my diaper bag, and brought it into the house. I sat on the couch and waited for the others to come in. While they were putting things away I was lost in thought. At this funeral, my daddy's funeral, it would be the last time I would see him. I didn't even know how big it would be, all I could think of who would go was Angela, Adam and I. When they were done putting things away Teresa went home and Angela helped me pick out an outfit. I was wearing one of Angela's old dresses, it was just plain black and it went to my knees. I grabbed a pair of black panty-hoze and my black mary-janes. When everything was laid out on my bed Angela told me to get into the shower while she made breakfast. I didn't even want to wash, I didn't feel like doing anything, so I just sat on the shower floor and let the water run over me. I know I wasn't clean but I didn't care. When I was done I went back to my room and saw a pull-up and my spice-mice shirt at the end of my bed, along with a pair of slippers. I put them on and went down to breakfast. After that I went upstairs got dressed, Angela did my hair, Angela got ready and Adam came home and got ready. During this time nothing much happened, I didn't say one word until we go to the funeral, I think my mouth forgot how to work.

When we got to Janisse Bros. Funeral Home I lost it. I started hyperventalating, I wet my pull-up and didn't want to get out of the back seat