The Story of David Mayter [mature content]

[Baby Jake]

An older story I wrote back in 2004. One of my favorites. Has a lot of language in it, and some mature themes, but nothing over-the-top. Enjoy
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“I was always the loner when I was littler. In school, I’d be that quiet kid in the corner who, no one knew about, and so, they wouldn’t acknowledge. I had no friends, and was getting pretty miserable. But according to the way things have turned out now, that’s the happiest I’d been in a while...”– David Mayter

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David sat in his room, alone…in the center of his room, in the center of the floor. The blinds were closed, his desk lamp was on. It was about dawn. The exact time was unknown, as it has been many hours since he looked. It was very dark where the sun wasn’t coming through, or where the desk lamp wasn’t lighting. But David didn’t bother turning on the ceiling light. He didn’t care to. He had a much bigger thing on his mind. David breathed in deeply, and wiped away several tears that were going down his cheeks. Then he finally looked around himself. Around him were papers. Notebook papers, just surrounding him everywhere, but their contents were unknown. However, he looked over at a notebook, sitting in front of him with a pencil sitting by it. He sobbed once or twice, until he finally leaned in to read what was on the open page.

”Writing is a passion for me…it is the way I let out my anger, let off steam. Paper is also a good way to wipe tears from my bloodshot eyes; at least it has been for the past few days. This really could be the last entry I write for a while. I think I may have snapped…if these journal entries that I am about to read don’t remind me how much I cherish life itself, I may end up doing something very drastic…something I don’t want to do. I may hurt myself…or someone else…”

David then wiped a few tears from his face, and shut the book. He quickly sobbed, and opened it up at the beginning, revealing a page filled with writing…

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Entry 01: Cold Feet

“So I did it. I finally did it! I managed to build enough guts to buy one…but unfortunately, I could only build so much guts to do one thing…”

”Okay, thank you” a kid said to the cashier.

“No problem, have a great day” the cashier replied to the kid politely.

The kid took his bag, whipped it over his shoulder, and quickly left the store. Like a great hammer, the sun beat onto the kid as he walked across the black cement of the parking lot, towards his bike. But half way there, he quickly turned back towards the building. The sun glaring in his eyes made him squint quite a bit as the kid suddenly began jogging towards the side of the building, towards a pile of dirt, rock and debris in a lot beside the store. Once there, however, he quickly took the bag from his shoulder, and dropped it to his feet. He checked around, and looked towards the main road, making sure no one saw him go behind the dirt mound, out of sight from the main street. Once he had confirmed the coast was clear, he suddenly took off a backpack that he was wearing. He checked again cautiously for people, before finally putting the bag inside of his backpack, zipped his pack, and whipped it back onto his back. Looking out from the mound, he once again saw the coast was clear of people walking. Then quickly, he jogged from the mound towards his bike…

He quickly hopped onto his bike, and began pedaling down the side walk. From there, he passed a few blocks quickly, crossing the roads without stopping, since it was rare to find a car going through them. But finally, he had reached a main road, and had to stop and wait for a crossing guard.

“Hey David” the female crossing guard said as she walked into the crosswalk.

“…hey Mrs. Rolland” the kid, or ‘David’, said to the crossing guard.

”How’s everything?” Mrs. Rolland asked as she continued walking.

”Their good…how about you?” David asked.

“Ha-ha, just working…what did you get at the store?” Mrs. Rolland asked as she put her hands out.

“…not too much, just some pop and stuff…” David replied with hesitation.

“Oh that’s nice…well, have a nice day!” Mrs. Rolland said as she stopped traffic for David.

“Thanks, you too” Davis said as he road across the road quickly.

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Finally, he was home. His bike was parked out back, and he was finally inside of his house, walking up his front steps.

“Hey David!” a woman said at the top of the steps.

“Hey mom” David said shyly on his way up.

“What’s up?” she asked as he walked on by.

“Not much…” he said as he sat down on a nearby chair.

“How was school?” his mom asked.

“Like school: it sucked” he admitted.

“Well that’s no good” his mom said. “Have any homework?” she asked.

“Nope, not much at all” he said.

“Okay, well, get dressed and you can go outside” she said.

“Heh, okay, thanks” he said.

David then quickly got up, and walked into his room. He glanced around his room once his door was shut, and finally double checked to see if his door was locked. Suddenly he launched over to his bed, and tossed his backpack onto his bed. He quickly unzipped the backpack, and pulled out the familiar plastic-bag. Then finally he looked around one final time, when he finally pulled out what was inside the bag. He glared at the contents, a small package with the words imprinted on the front: ‘Baby King Pacifiers’

He starred at them for a few moments, until finally snatching them off of his bed, and opened them up, and laid the three pacifiers onto his nearby computer desk, and starred at them. There was a blue one, a green one, and a red one, each the same size, and the same shape. He looked at them for a few moments, until finally snagging the blue one. He slowly walked over to the mirror on his wall, and starred at himself in the mirror as he slowly put the pacifier into his mouth.

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David quickly approached the familiar, to him, door of his friend’s house. He was of course outside now, it was still hot and dry out there. The sun was shining and there wasn’t a cloud in the sky. Quickly he knocked on the jade-colored beat up wood door, and took a few steps back. It was only a few short moments until the sounds of footsteps began from behind the door, and then, the jade-colored beat up wood door swung open, revealing another kid, about the same age as David.

“Hey man, come on up” the kid said to David.

“Heh, alright man. On my way” David replied to the kid.

Quickly David walked into the house, past the kid, and then up a flight of steps. Eventually he reached a living room, and from there, David instantly sat down onto the couch.

“So what do you want to do?” the kid asked David.

“The heck if I know, it’s all you” David replied.

“Hey Sven, can you get me the dishes?” a woman asked from the nearby kitchen.

The kid, or ‘Sven’, sighed deeply, and quickly got up and picked up a few dishes off the coffee table in front of the couch. Then after he got them, he carried them out of the room. Shortly after that, however, he returned empty handed.

“We could go to the park…ride bikes…uh…go in the woods…” David suggested as Sven sat down next to him.

“Yeah…alright, let’s go. Mom, we’re heading out!” Sven said, yelling a bit to his mother.

“Alright, be careful.” Sven’s mom said from the kitchen.

“I will” Sven said as he and David walked back down the steps, and eventually out the door.

From there, the two grabbed their bikes, and began riding down the sidewalk. The two turned a few bends until they finally began talking…

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The two sat now, on a fallen tree, which laid over a steady running crick. They were obviously in the woods now. It was much later into the day now, almost sunset. The temperature had grown cooler now. The two chatted as friends, talking of many miscellaneous subjects, like videogames, movies, BMX, etc: just small talk. But suddenly David changed his attitude, changing the subject completely.

“Sven…we’re real cool friends, right?” David asked, sounding a tad concerned.

“Yeah…I’d like to think so. Why? What’s up?” Sven asked.

David was silent for a short while, as though he was thinking of something hard.

“…Oh, nothing. Just wondering .You just have to ask these things sometimes…you know?” David admitted.

Sven looked at him confused.

“Yeah…uh…I guess…” Sven said confused.

“…Yeah…alright, so what we were talking about?” David said, totally changing the subject yet again.

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“So I got cold feet…again. If only I could tell him…but something keeps me from doing it. Don’t know what. He said we’re good friends, and I’d love to believe that. But he’s weird sometimes, and I guess that’s what keeps me from admitting it to him…my secret that is. Friends keep secrets…and I’d just feel so much better if I could tell him. Anyways…I got my pacifiers today like I had planned. Glad this time I didn’t freak out like when I got my bottle. I kept it cool, thank God. As a matter of fact, I’m sucking one right now. Feels so good, the latex nipple inside of my mouth I mean. I could suck on this thing all day. Really, I could. But, I know that I cannot…I hate hiding my feelings about things…when I have an opinion; I am usually one to express it. To hell with everyone else, I mean if they don’t like it, **** them. Everyone has their opinions, their feelings, and they have every right to express it…alright…I’ll stop here. Useless babbling. It’s about midnight here, and I need sleep…so I’m going to end this entry here. Tomorrow, I’m going to try telling him. Really, I’m going to tell him this time…”

[Baby Jake]

Entry 02: Plan into Action

“I woke up this day having strange dreams, like usual. It was strange…almost seemed like it really happened. But then again, I guess it really did. Well not all of it…I didn’t really go swimming, but I certainly got wet.”

David slowly opened his eyes, and found himself in his room, in his bed, wrapped in his blanket. At first, however, he was a bit confused, due to the change in state of mind. But he quickly regained conscious, and found that it was real early morning, around 7AM to be exact. He rubbed his eyes, and looked around at the dim-lit walls, until he finally sat up on the side of his bed. He yawned deeply, and then, he stood up, and walked towards his computer. He looked browsed around without sitting down on his computer for a bit.

“No new e-mails…no new messages…” David said to himself, in a deep tone from waking up.

David shrugged a bit, but then turned around and looked at himself in the mirror. Nothing different than yesterday, just like he went to sleep in, he wasn’t wearing any pajamas, wasn’t wearing boxers, but he wasn’t naked either. He kind of smirked as he starred at himself in the mirror, wearing nothing but a white, puffy, pull-up diaper. He quickly took a finger and stuck it about an inch or two into the front of his diaper.

“Hmm…wet…” David whispered to himself.

He sighed, shrugged, and turned around towards his closet. After opening the door, and digging through his closet a bit, he eventually turned around, holding a fresh and unused diaper, along with a thing of baby powder, and also a box of baby wipes. From there, he walked over to his bed, and placed the powder and the wipes onto his bed. Then, after his hands were free, he tore the sides of his diaper, letting it fall to the floor. Then, he took a few baby wipes from the box, and wiped his area, slightly wincing from the cold from the wipe. Then, once he was finished wiping himself, he dropped it into the used diaper, and snagged the baby powder. From there, he applied it to and around his diaper area, then clapped his hands a bit. Finally, he tossed the baby powder on the bed, then, took the fresh diaper, and put it on.

“Yeah…I’m going to tell him today…” David said confidently to himself.

“…I hope” he finished, looking at himself in the mirror.

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“Hey Sven” David said into the phone.

“Hey David, wassup?” Sven responded.

“Not too much, just woke up a few hours ago. You free today?’ David asked.

“Sure am.” Sven said.

“Good, good…so you want to do anything later on today?” David said.

“Of course’ Sven said.

“Rock on…so you when you aloud?” David asked.

There was a quick pause before Sven responded…

“…I can leave as I’m done doing chores and taking a shower” Sven said.

“Alright, well, just come on down whenever you can.” David said.

“Okay, I’ll be sure to!” Sven said.

“Hey, you know what, give me a call when you leave” David added.

“Okay, no problem” Sven assured.

“Alright man, see you in a few” David said.

“Alright, later” Said Sven.

“Later” David finished.

And with that, David hung up the phone, and looked up at the clock.

“11:30AM” he said to himself.

“Guess I have time to chat” he added. Then, he quickly walked into his room, and before he knew it, he was sitting in front of his computer monitor.

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“Hey” said David in the chat window.

“Hey” replied someone online, their alias ‘PaciMat067’

“What’s up?” David asked PaciMat067.

“Not too much…you?” he replied.

“Not too much, just waiting for Sven to get back here” David said.

“Sounds fun” PaciMat067 said.

“Heh, I’ve had more” David joked.

There was silence for a few minutes…

“…so, did you ever get the paci’s?” PaciMat067 asked.

“As a matter of fact, I did” David instantly answered.

“Awesome! How do you like them?” PaciMat067 asked.

“Dude, I can’t tell you how much I love them” David said.

“Ha-ha, I knew you’d love them. How did the trip go?” PaciMat067 asked.

“It was Hell…” David began.

“How so?” PaciMat067 asked.

“It just was…first I had to wait in the front of the store, trying to build up confidence and ‘balls’. Then once I was inside the store, I had to wait in the back, waiting for some kids I know to get out. Then I had to wait in line for a while, and then the cashier took a few double-takes as I gave them to her…but she was nice. Then once I got out, I had to hide behind a dirt-mound to avoid anyone seeing me put them in my backpack” David explained.

“Could have been worse” PaciMat067 said.

“Too true man, too true” David replied.

“But luckily, things didn’t end up worse” PaciMat067 said.

“Yeah…aside from my own paranoia and impatient habits, the trip went smooth” David finally concluded.

“Well, I’m glad things worked out well like that” PaciMat067 said.

“Me too…yeah…how about you? How have you been?” David said.

“Me? I’ve been better…but then again, I’ve been worse. Can’t complain.” PaciMat067

“Same…” David said.

There, once again, was a short-timed silence.

“So…how’s Sven?” PaciMat067 asked.

“Sven? He’s been…fine. Why?” David asked.

“I dunno, just asking. Just making conversation =)” PaciMat067 said.

“Oh okay. Yeah, he’s fine.” David said.

“Glad to hear it. So are you going to tell him about your diapers?” PaciMat067 asked.

“Well, I’m going to try. I backed out yesterday. I just didn’t build up enough ‘balls’ to explain to him that I wear them” David explained.

“I understand. Hey, I’m 110% sure that he’ll understand. Heck, you two have been friends for years and years. Just be sure to explain to him that you’re incontinent. But a quick pointer for you: I wouldn’t recommend telling him about being a teen baby. Not yet.” PaciMat067 explained.

“Yeah, very true…” David said.

“Oh wait, hold on. The phone is ringing, brb” David said.

David quickly pulled himself from the computer monitor, and the conversation with this ‘PaciMat067’. He turned, and quickly answered the phone.

“Hello?” David answered.

“Hey man, it’s Sven. I’m aloud out now, should I just come on down now?” Sven asked.

“Yeah man, just come on down. We’ll be expecting you” David said.

“Alright man, see you in a bit” Sven said.

“Same, later” David finished.

Quickly, the two hung up. David returned to the monitor, and the conversation with ‘PaciMat067’.

“Was that Sven?” PaciMat067 asked.

“Yeah, he’s gonna be down soon” David explained.

“Oh, alright” PaciMat067 said.

“Hey, I have to shower, and change…or vice-versa” David explained.

”I gotta go” David finally finished.

“Alright man, I’ll see you” PaciMat067 said.

And with that, David clicked a few things, and walked away from his computer.

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“Hey Sven” David said, now standing in the doorway to his house.

“Hey man…hey, did you just take a shower?” Sven asked.

“Well…yeah, actually, I did” David admitted, letting Sven in.

The two walked up David’s steps, into his house.

“Why? We’re about to go outside” Sven said.

“Uh…well…didn’t exactly think of that one!” David said, dumbfounded and laughing.

“Dumbass” Sven said, laughing.

The two laughed a bit, but suddenly, there was a knock at the door.

“Hold up” David said, walking back down the steps.

“It’s Jason” he said, peaking out of the door’s windows.

“Oh yeah…forgot to tell you. Jason saw me, and I told him to come along” Sven explained.

“Oh…oh…okay…” David said, sounding quite disappointed. With Jason along, David couldn’t explain to Sven about his wearing diapers.

“Well let him in!” Sven said.

“…this is my house” David said.

“I know, I was just messing around” Sven explained.

David fake laughed, turned around, and opened the door. Behind it laid another kid, around the same age as Sven and David.

“Hey man” Jason said.

“Hey, what’s up?” David said.

“Just enduring this heat” Jason replied.

“Well, come on in” Sven, of all people, said.

“Alright” Jason said, walking on in.

Before David knew it, the two were up his stairs, and around the corner.

“Oh hey guys!” he heard his mom say.

“Hey Ms. Mayter!” he heard Sven say.

“Sure guys, make yourselves at home” David whispered to himself, still holding the door open, still looking outside.

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The three now sat patiently in David’s fan-less living room, enduring the heat.

“What’s there to do?” Sven asked.

“I don’t know…we could go back into the woods…or…something I really can’t think of” David said.

“We could…hey! Who brought their bikes?” Sven said, raising his hand.

“Me” Jason said.

“Well…I live here…so yeah, I have my bike” David said, speaking up.

“Awesome! I say we go ride our bikes!” Sven said.

“Okay” everyone had agreed.

“Where at?” Jason asked.

“Don’t care” Sven said.

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Now, they were all sitting in a park, on a bench. Their bikes were parked elsewhere.

“So…this did us a lot of good” Jason said.

”Shut up” Sven said.

”I mean, we left David’s house, which had a couch, cable TV –“ Jason ranted, but was cut off.

”Shuddup!” Sven said again.

David simply chuckled at Jason and Sven.

”So David, what do you think we should do?” Sven asked.

”Um…anything besides sitting here” David said, looking at the basketball court.

”Why?” Jason asked.

”There, you see that kid in the grey t-shirt and the black and white shorts?” David asked.

”Yeah, so?” Jason asked. Suddenly Sven laughed evilly.

”That’s Ryan” Sven said.

”…yeah…” David finished.

”He’s an asshole” David finished. “Just looking at him makes me nervous.”

“Pfft, man, he won’t mess with us” Jason said.

”No, but I’m gonna go mess with him” Sven said, smirking, as he stood up from the bench.

”Dude, don’t **** with him” David said, standing up.

”Why? Well, I’m going to. You two can stand by and watch, leave, or come with me” Sven said

”I ain’t coming, ****, we have enough problems with him and his little crew, and for once he isn’t messing with us. Leave him alone” David commanded. Sven stood for a bit, debating whether or not he should uselessly mess with Ryan.

”Come on guys, we’ve got nothing better to do!” Sven said with a devilish grin.

”No, dude, seriously, don’t.” David said.

“Alright, fine. Pussies, I’ll just sit here on my ass and let us be bored” Sven said aggravated as he sat back down.

”Yeah dude, you’re the master of our fate” David said sarcastically.

”Huh?” Sven grunted out confused.

”Never mind…” David quietly replied.

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”I hate it when Sven acts like that…he thinks that, just because in his life, he suffered a little misfortune, he should spread it around like a virus. I could care less what he wants to do to himself, but he doesn’t have to bring me into it. Well…that’s not true…he’s my friend, and I want him to stay that way. And I want us to stay friends, because when we’re alone with each other, we’re so cool with each other. It’s when he’s around other people, like Jason for example, that he acts up. Always one for the spot light, always was.”

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”Alright, I’ll see you later Jason” Sven said as Jason road off on his bike. It was now sunset and Jason had to be in by dinner, like always.

”Hey Sven, got a minute?” David asked as he opened his front door.

”Of course…I don’t have to be home for a half-hour” he explained.

”Alright man, anything you want to drink?” David kindly asked as he walked Sven into his house.

”Naw man, I’m cool. Thanks” Sven replied as the two finally made it to the top of the steps.

”You sure?” David asked nervously. He was trying to make Sven as comfortable as possible, because he was going to tell him, and if he was ever going to, he was going to now.

”Yeah man, I’m cool…why?” Sven asked as the two were walking through his dining room.

”Sorry man, just trying to be cool…” David replied quickly. There was a long silence as they walked past the kitchen, around the next corner, and eventually into David’s room.

David quickly sat down on his computer chair, as Sven sat down onto his nearby bed.

”Sven, we’re really good friends, right?” David asked.

“Yeah…I’d like to think so. Why? You did this yesterday” Sven said.

“I know, sorry about that…I’ve just meaning to tell you something…something regarding me personally, that I am entrusting you with” David explained. Sven was silent through the whole thing…

”Anyways, Sven, what I am about to tell you is secret. Not the simple gossip kind of secret, I mean, a deep, dark secret. Something that if anyone found out, I don’t know what I could do…and because you are my friend, my only true friend that I’ve known for so long, and know I can trust, I am confident that I won’t be making a mistake by telling you.” David continued.

”Um…okay…well, whatever man…I mean, I won’t tell anyone anything, promise.” Sven said.

”Okay, well…it’s rather difficult for me to explain…” David began…

”Everyone is different. We look different, act different, sound different…we know different things, say and sing different things, WEAR different things, and so on…” David explained, emphasizing ‘wear’.

”I know this is basically what my mom explained to me when I was a little kid” Sven said.

”For example, some people sing scat music…some people wear piercing, tattoos, baggier clothes, short clothes…diapers…” David said, ignoring what Sven said.

”Diapers? Where the heck did that come from?” Sven asked confused.

David bit his lower lip…”Well, some people wear diapers, I mean, they often can’t help it” David explained.

“I know, why?” Sven said.

“You asked where that came from, and it’s an item of clothing” David explained some more.

”Yeah, I guess you’re right…I mean, some people really can’t help it” Sven finished.

“Yeah…and uh…Sven…I happen…to be one of those people” David said under his breath, but just loud enough for Sven to hear.

Sven just starred at David blankly for a short period of time, confused, and taken off-guard. “…what?” is all he could say.

“Sven, I wear diapers. I am incontinent. I have no control, and never have since the day I was born.” David explained.

“…you’re serious, aren’t you?” Sven asked, still not sure.

”Yes Sven, to my misfortune, I am serious” David said.

”…so you’re wearing a diaper…right now?” he asked.

“As we speak and as we have spoken in the past” David concluded.

“…so…you like…actually…-“ Sven began, but was cut off by David.

”Yes” he said.

“Well, what about school? I mean, that stuff never happens. I’ve seen you go to the bathroom all the time!” Sven said.

“I’m not completely incontinent…just sometimes I can’t control it, sometimes I can…depending on how bad I have to go” he explained.

“Well…what part of you is incontinent?” Sven asked.

“I have bladder incontinence” David responded.

“Oh…that sucks…but it could be worse” Sven said, jokingly.


“Ha-ha, yeah…I guess things could be” David admitted.

“Hey, man. I tell you what…I’ve got to go now, I have to head home and I want to get there before it’s completely dark outside.” Sven said.

“Okay” David replied.

“Hey man, I seriously won’t tell anyone anything” Sven said reassuringly.

“Okay man…I seriously trust you with this” David responded.

“Worry-free my friend” Sven said, and with that, he left…

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”So I did it…I had finally told him. And you know what? It feels pretty good…I’m glad. I really am confident that I can trust him…we’ve been friends for so long. However, I’m deathly tired…my eyes are drooping as I write the finishing words for this entry. So journal, I’m going to sleep early…hopefully tomorrow me, Sven and Jason can all go into the woods and hike, maybe hit up the BMX trails or something…I dunno…I’ll sleep on it”

[Baby Jake]

Entry 03: R.I.P, William Green

”Yesterday I was lying in my bed…trying to go to sleep. However, I couldn’t…and Mat wasn’t online, so I decided to look through my digital picture albums, just for fun. I usually do, I like to remember some things. That’s why I keep this journal…because I like to write and remember things. Through my picture archives, however, I found an ever-so familiar face…a friend who recently…passed away. It was only a few years ago, I knew him far before I knew Sven, we went to the same Kindergarten class. I still remember him as truly my best friend. He never was strange like Sven, never did anything like Sven…but he is not here anymore. Not in his physical form. Looking at his pictures only kept on making me remember him…which is no problem. I mean, I do want to remember him, and I always will.”

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“Hey Dave, come check this out!” David heard as he laid in the grass, starring up at the sky.

”What’s up?” he asked as he sat up, looking at a kid with a bike, standing on the nearby sidewalk, near a little bike-ramp made of some wood and a cinder block.

”I can almost do it…just a little bit more and I can do it” the kid said.

”Will! Let me see what you can do!” David and William heard from Sven, standing by a nearby tree.

“Alright, both of you watch” William said to David and Sven as he got back onto the bike.

William spun his bike around, away from the ramp, and went down the sidewalk, out of David’s and Sven’s sight. It wasn’t until a few moments later that they saw William gunning back towards the ramp. Suddenly he launched off the ramp, getting about 3 feet in the air. Just as he was about to get as high as he could, he quickly whipped his foot off the pedal, basically doing a one-footer in BMX terms. Then he whipped his foot back onto the pedal, landed, and rode away smooth.

”OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!” David yelled as he ran towards William.

”I got it!” William yelled as he rode towards David.

”Dude, that was SICK!” Sven shouted to William.

”Ha-ha! Thank you, thank you!” William said.

”Alright guys, I’ve got to go.” Sven said to William and David.

”Alright man, see-ya” William said to Sven.

”Yeah, later!” David said.

”Later guys” Sven finished. He then turned around, and rode off towards his house.

”Hey Will, you want to go into my room?” David said smiling and winking.

”Definitely! I need a change” William said, returning the smile.

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The two walked up David’s stairs, up into his apartment.

”No one’s home right now, my mom should be at work!” David said smiling. ”…but just to be sure, I’ll go check everywhere. Sit around and wait while I go check the house” David continued.

”Okay!” William said back, smiling and eager.

Now at the top of the steps, David ran off while William sat in the door way. He looked around for a bit, starring at the walls. Then William remembered something: what was inside of his pocket. He smirked a bit as he remembered the blue and red pacifier sitting inside of his pocket. Suddenly he stuck his hand in his right-hand pant pocket, and rolled his finger around the nipple.

”Will! No one’s home! Feel free to take your pants off!” he suddenly heard David yell from somewhere in the apartment.

”Alright man! I’ve been waiting for you to say that all day!” William yelled back, laughing.

Without any delay, William instantly unzipped his pants, pulled his pants down to his ankles, and then kicked them off. Now in nothing but boxers, he bent down quickly, and reached inside of his pocket, and pulled out the pacifier he had imagined a few moments ago. He bent back up, starring at it, smiling like a child would. It was dark blue with a bright red ring, and it had a transparent silicon nipple. Suddenly, he popped it into his mouth and began sucking on the pacifier, extremely contently. Then he remembered his boxers, and suddenly pulled them down to his ankles like he did with his pants. However, when he kicked them off, he was not naked…not completely. He looked down to find himself standing in a, rather wet, diaper…

”You sure don’t believe in wasting time!” he heard David say from in front of him, laughing.

”Nope!” William said back as he bent back up to face.

Just like William, however, David was standing in nothing but a diaper, the same brand as William’s: a Goodnite. It too, was wet. He beamed a smile towards William, and William beamed a smile back.

”You know Dave, you really should get a pacifier too, like me” William said.

”I know man…I’m going to, sooner or later” David said back.

William laughed a bit…”Well, I guess until then, I’m gonna have to change you, and you change me”

”Okay” David said with a smile.

Without any hesitation, William stepped towards David, and David, did the same. They walked towards each other, both grinning and wearing nothing but wet diapers, until they wear standing at each other’s feet in the middle of the dining room.

”You first” William said.

”Okey!” David said, slowly lying down on the floor.

William bent down on his knees, in front of David…and was about to tear the sides of David’s diaper, when suddenly…

”Wait” David said.

”What?” William asked curiously.

”You’re forgetting the baby wipes, and the baby powder” David said laughing.

“DOH!” William said, dumbfounded and laughing a bit, too.

”Olay then, I’ll be right back!” William said, standing back up and jogging off, towards David’s room. David laughed a bit as he heard William rummage a bit through his room. However it wasn’t too long after that he finally heard William jogging back to David, holding a thing of baby powder, and a box of baby wipes.

”Got it now!” William said excitedly.

”Yay!” David said back, laughing.

”Alright, so let’s try this one more time” William said.

William, once again sitting on his knees, once again put his hands on David’s sides on his diaper, and slowly tore them from the top, to the bottom. When he was done tearing both the sides at the same time, he pulled the front down to the floor, making David lying naked on the floor. William simply smirked a bit, and grabbed a baby wipe from the nearby box, and began to thoroughly wipe David. Then, he pulled the torn diaper out from under David, tossed the used wipe in it, and rolled the diaper up and tossed it to the side. And after that, William took the baby powder, and sprinkled some all over David’s diaper area, and then thoroughly applied it around his area. Finally, he took David’s new diaper, and began to slide it up David’s legs (like putting on underwear while lying down). David sat up.

”Thank you, Willie!” he said, smiling.

”Anytime, Davie!” William said.

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”Anytime, he said…you know how much I wish that was true. Will was such a cool guy, I mean, really just the coolest person I’ve ever known. I told him about my diapers, like I did with Sven yesterday. Will was just too cool though, he had actually wanted to try them on, and he ended up becoming a diaper-lover, like I was at the time. It was he who decided to become a teen baby…he said “Hey, since we’re both in diapers, we should go the rest of the way!”

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It was now about one week from that night. It was Sven, Jason, and David, all sitting in his living room…

”You know what I just noticed?” Jason asked the whole room, sarcastically.

”What?” David asked.

”It’s really freakin hot in here” Jason responded.

”You know what I just noticed?” Sven asked, sarcastic also.

”What?” David asked again.

”You’re a ****ing idiot” Sven said, laughing.

Jason began to laugh with Sven hard. It was because of the laughter that they didn’t notice the phone ringing…

”So what should we do? I mean, we could go to the pool, go to the park, go bike riding, hike...” David began.

”Or we could just stay in here on the couch” Jason suggested.

”Personally I don’t care what we do…I’m bored out of my mind” Sven said.

”Yeah, me too” everyone said in agreement.

”Guys” they heard coming from David’s mom.

”Guys, I have some…some seriously terrible news…this isn’t a joke, not a prank or anything like that” she said.

”…what’s up?” David asked.

”Guys…William…he uh…he was in an accident” she said.

”Well is he okay?!” David asked concerned.

His mother only breathed in deeply, until finally saying…”No…no, David, he isn’t…he um…he passed away sometime yesterday.”

The room was silent, for what seemed like days, but was only a few short seconds…

”I know this…is hard on everyone, but his mother wants us to go to her house for a few minutes. In the hospital, he requested that she give a few items to you guys” she continued.

”…you’re kidding, right?” David asked, stepping forward.

”David…no…I’m not kidding” she said. And as much as he didn’t believe her, or at least didn’t want to, he couldn’t deny the possibility that William may indeed be dead. The one thing that truly began to convince him was the look on his mother’s face. The seriousness in her eyes were too filled with emotion to be acting.

”…Jason…Sven…I think she is for real” David said, turning and facing Jason and Sven.

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However, later on that day, they would learn that if it wasn’t true, it would be one hell of a great prank. They arrived at William’s house where his mother waited up in his room…

”Hi guys” William’s mom said, sitting on the edge of his bed. She looked as though she had been crying for quite a while.

”Hi…Mrs. Green” David and everyone else said. Everyone else being, David and his mother, Jason and his parents, and Sven and his parents, that is.

”I know I called you all here…in the hospital, William had requested that I give everyone a selected amount of little items of his to remember him by…” Mrs. Green said.

”…okay” everyone said.

Mrs. Green turned around, and grabbed a piece of paper from behind her. “Okay…David” she said. “To my best friend, to whom I shared the best times of my life with, I give to you the two most secret items.” She read to the room.

”Okay…” David said.

Mrs. Green turned around again, leaving the list in her lap. Finally, once she turned around, she revealed to him to two items. One, was a small white box, inside of it was unknown. The second item was to his surprise, a red wire frame notebook, in pretty good condition. She handed the box and the notebook to David, letting a tear drip down her cheek.

”David, he has several more notebooks like this. After this, I will give them to you. William just said that you MUST have this particular one, no one else.” Mrs. Green said.

”I understand” David said, staring down at the red notebook.

”Okay” Mrs. Green said, leaning back onto the bed.

David stared down at the notebook and at the box, and began to feel his eyes swell up as he began to fully comprehend the situation. William really was dead, he would never be heard from again. His longest and best friend really was gone, forever. He then slowly slid down the wall he was standing against, until he was eventually sitting against the wall, still holding the box and notebook. As Mrs. Green called off Jason’s inherited items, David slowly opened the box, but only a little bit. He wanted to make sure that what was in the box was really what he thought it was. He slowly pulled up the top of the white box, and peaked inside. From just a one-inch opening, David could see what he believed it was going to be: a pacifier. But it wasn’t just that same pacifier from the other day; there were other things in there, too. He could see a bit of a bottle’s nipple, and even a diaper or two underneath all of it. Quickly David closed the box up, and gently set it aside so that he could examine the notebook. He slowly folded the red cover back, revealing a page of paper with few words on it:

”JOURNAL 2002 - “ is what it said, an uncompleted sentence, and one never to be completed. David slowly passed the page, and looked at the next page. This time, it was a journal entry marked early in the year 2002. As David read the long entry, he began to slowly cry. The journal entry was written about David and William chilling out, and having a good time. The funny thing was, David could remember exactly what William was writing about. He remembered the recorded day so well. However, it wasn’t too late after reading a few paragraphs from the entry that David found himself crying more and more each sentence. Suddenly David shut the notebook.

”Are you okay?” he heard his mother whisper to him.

David nodded a bit, “Yeah” he said, wiping a tear from his cheek..

”David” he heard coming from Mrs. Green’s voice.

”Yes?” he asked.

”I’ll get you those other journals now” she said. Her eyes were now bloodshot from crying, and her cheeks were very wet.

”Okay…” he said.

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David was now alone, in his room, in the dark. It was now about midnight or so, the exact time was unknown. David was sitting against his wall; next to him was a stack of notebooks, all of William’s old journals. Sitting in front of him was a notebook from the pile, though it was only a few pages in. And to his left, there sat the familiar white box, now empty. Resting around it was the familiar pacifier, a baby bottle with a bright red ring (the thing that holds the nipple to the bottle), along with a few bottle cleaners and one or two diapers. In conclusion, David was surrounded by William’s belongings. David took his head from his hands, and looked back to the journal, and slowly shut the notebook. Tears were running down his face, and his eyes were bloodshot. He sighed deeply, stood up slowly off of the bed, and walked to a desk a few feet from his bed. Guided by the light coming from the desk-lamp, he rummaged a bit on a shelf which was built into the leg of the desk. It took him a few moments of digging through miscellaneous things, but eventually he pulled out a blue notebook, the same style as William’s, only blue. He gently placed it on the top of the desk, and adjusted the light to point onto the top, instead of towards his bed (since he was reading William’s journal). Then, he sat down on the chair, pulled a pencil off of the desk, opened the blue notebook and starred at a blank page: the first page. Finally, he wrote the few words up top of the page:

”In loving memory of my best friend, William Green”

Then, a few lines below that…

”Journal #1, 2002 though…” he finished…

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”So yeah…that’s how I got into writing my journals. Anyways, that was two long, long years ago. As I wrote this journal entry, I couldn’t help but find myself with tears in my eyes. I still miss him…no one, and I mean NO ONE will ever be such a great friend like he was. Anyway, it was about a week or two after William’s death that his funeral was held. We were invited, and we went. I swear I hadn’t cried that hard ever in my entire life…and I never want to again….and I pray that I won’t. Will…wherever you are…I miss you…”

[Baby Jake]

Entry 04: Me and Sven

”Hey Journal…it’s me, David again. Today something happened that I was not quite expecting…something I had hoped for. It’s been about two weeks since I told Sven about my incontinence…I’ve hung out with him since. Honestly, he’s been pretty cool with it, which is very, very good. I just wonder if I’ll ever be able to tell him about my being a teen baby soon. Well, we’ll cross that bridge when we arrive at it. Speaking of teen babies, I’ve been receiving some positive feedback about my latest story online, ‘Teen Baby Sleepover: The Next Year’. I really put time and effort into it. But towards the last segment, I was starting to get distracted…I’ve thought of another idea for a story…a darker story, a more serious story…I thought if I can bear reading those journal entries in William’s old journals, I can make a story based off of his entries…in his memory as a teen baby. I actually began work on the story…I’ve started reading a bit of his final journal.”

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”So what should we do?” Sven asked, sitting on David’s bed, as David typed away at something on the computer.

”I don’t know man, whatever. It’s all up to you, think of something” David said, still looking at the computer monitor.

”Well, what are you doing?” Sven asked David.

”Just checking my mail, nothing too exciting” he replied.

”That’s cool…” Sven said boringly.

”Not really…” David said, finally spinning around and facing Sven on the bed. Sven laughed a bit, as did David. Then silence, as the two thought of something to do…

”…hey David…” Sven said, looking down at the ground and speaking silently.

”…yeah Sven?” David asked, slightly concerned.

”If I’m invading your privacy, tell me…but um…what is it like?” Sven asked, silently, looking up at David.

”What is what like?” David asked, even though he was pretty sure what he meant.

”To wear a diaper…what is it like?” Sven responded.

”Well…it’s difficult to explain…you kind of have to experience it yourself” David said, getting a grin.

”…okay” Sven responded.

David waited a few short moments for Sven asked the magic question, “May I have one?” which he really wanted to hear. But Sven kept facing the ground, silent. So eventually, David smirked, stood up without a word, and walked to the closet.

”What are you doing?” Sven asked curiously, but still sitting on the bed.

”Getting you a diaper” David said without facing him, still digging in the closet.

”What? No! I mean, I don’t know what to do…and I’m not gonna let you put one on me!” Sven said, instantly blushing.

David laughed a bit, and finally stood up, and faced Sven, now holding a diaper.

”Don’t worry, it’s a pull-up. I don’t need to do anything. Just put it on like boxers. The blue square in the back insinuates the back up the diaper” David said, tossing the diaper onto the bed, next to Sven.

”Um…okay…” Sven said, looking at the diaper, and blushing furiously.

”Alright, just come on out whenever you’re wearing one, I’ll be in the hallway” David said, beaming a smile at Sven.

”Okay” Sven said, standing up off of the bed.

”Okay then, see you in a few” David said, and then, he left Sven alone in the room, shutting the door behind him.

David smiled a big cheesy smile as he walked down the hallway, and eventually arrived in the living room, and plopped down into the chair. During his wait, he examined his living room, like he usually did during a waiting session. But it was during this waiting session that he suddenly found a familiar item of his: his digital camera. Upon this discovery, he got another cheesy smile. Quickly he snatched the camera and put it inside of his pant pocket, just as he heard his bedroom door open from all the way down the hall.

”Dude, I don’t know HOW you can walk in these things” he heard, coming from the hallway. All David did though was smile again, and begin walking down the hallway.

”You get used to it” David responded.

”Yeah, I guess you would” he heard Sven say.

Finally, however, the two met up in the hallway quickly.

”But dude, these things are TIGHT” Sven said. David looked thought for a moment, and then looked down at Sven’s pants.

”It’s your pants, they’re too tight. So, take them off” David said.

”Huh?! My pants?!” Sven said, backing up and blushing once again.

”No man, I’m serious. I’m not trying to be a perv’ or anything like that, but seriously, your pants are too tight. I wear loose pants, so I don’t get the air-tight effect from the diaper” David said. Sven continued to blush, but he did understand.

”Um…I guess you’ve got a point” Sven said…”But I’m not taking them off if you’ve got your camera!” Sven said.

”Huh? OH, don’t worry dude, I don’t” David lied.

Sven looked around at David’s pants, but was easily fooled by the roomy pockets and the loose pants.

”Oh…well…are you wearing one?” Sven asked.

”…yes….yes, I am” David said, pulling down the top inch of his pants a bit to show off the diaper.

”…oh…well…are you going to get undressed, too?” Sven asked.

”What? Oh, yeah…sure…” David said as he deviously (but innocently) plotted how to get a shot of Sven in a diaper.

“Well…okay…but are --“ “Dude, sometime before my mom gets home!” David said, laughing.

”Yeah…I guess your right…alright, go into the living room, and I’ll get my pants off over in your room. But when I get into the living room, I swear, if you’re not in nothing but a diaper like me, I’ll kill yah!” Sven said jokingly.

”Alright man, I will, trust me. I ain’t all that shy…but um, I know you are, so take your time” David explained.

”Okay then…well…see you in a few minutes” Sven said, slowly walking towards David’s room as David walked into the living room.

Now was David’s chance. If he was going to jokingly get a shot of Sven in a diaper, now would be the time…but how? Suddenly the idea came to him! He looked down at his pant legs, which were filled of holes and tears from riding BMX. He quickly unzipped his pants, pulling the camera out of his pocket, and laid the pants on the chair he was just sitting on. Now in a diaper and a shirt, he turned on his camera, and went through the few modes on the camera. There was Normal Picture, Silent Video, and Timed Picture. Of course, since he had the camera for a year, he’s had a year’s experience with it. He knew where everything was off of heart, so he didn’t even have to look at the menu to activate things. He turned off the flash, turned off the ‘beep’ it takes when the Timed Picture is active, and then hid it inside of his pant leg, and worked with it just right, so that the lens was sticking out of a hole in his pants, which was on the arm of the chair. In short, the camera was hidden in David’s pant, sticking out only enough for the lens to get through. All Sven had to do was stand in the dining room, which is where the camera was aiming, and David could click the button through his pant and WAMO! he’d have a shot.

Anyways, David looked around, and finally took off his shirt. Now he was only in a diaper, standing in the living room awaiting Sven to get in. But he didn’t wait too long, it was only a few short moments after taking off his shirt that he heard his bedroom door opening, instantly giving David a smirk.

”Well Dave, you weren’t lying. My pants were the problem, but this diaper is still weird” he heard coming from Sven’s direction.

”Give it a few minutes, you’ll get used to it” David said, starring at the hallway. Suddenly he saw Sven’s head pop out from the side of the door way.

”Hiya!” Sven said, laughing and blushing.

“Yo!” David said back, laughing.

Slowly he watched Sven inch his way out from the hallway, each time, proving more and more that he really was in nothing but a diaper, making David smile more and more, and Sven blush more and more. Finally, however, he could clearly see Sven in nothing but a diaper, standing in the middle of the dining room. Suddenly David pressed the button on the camera, like he had planned to, taking the picture without Sven’s noticing.

”So come on Dave, get up!” Sven said through his teeth, sarcastically. David laughed a bit, and nervously got up. This was the first time he had been in a situation like this since he used to do it with William, and honestly, he kind of forgot what it was like. But he didn’t let Sven know that, he acted like he said he was: not shy. He stood up nervously, but quickly, showing off his diaper, too. Sven laughed a bit as he saw David in a diaper.

”Hey man, you’ve got little room to talk” David said, smirking.

”Yeah, yeah, I know” Sven replied…

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Two hours later, Sven and David were still in diapers. Eventually, they both forgot about the fact they were both in a diaper, and nothing but. They talked; they played videogames, along with other things. But in time, it grew late, and it became time for Sven to head home. The two were now inside of David’s room, David was laying on the bed, and Sven was getting his pants back on.

”So Dave, this was pretty fun” Sven said.

”Really?” David asked curiously.

”Sure! We should do this again some time” Sven said, laughing.

“Hey man, fine with me” David said, smirking.

Sven stood up from tying his shoes, and faced the computer desk…

”Whoa…Dave…is this…” Sven said, becoming silent. He looked under the computer monitor where a notebook sat. It was not just a notebook though. It was…

”William’s journal?” Sven finished.

”Huh? Oh…yeah…one of them” David confirmed.

”Why do you have it here?” Sven asked, pulling it from under the monitor.

”Well…I’ve been reading them lately…” David admitted.

”…oh….” Sven said, looking at it, but not bothering to open it. There was a long silence as the two remembered William once again.

”Hey David” Sven said, putting the notebook down.

”Yes?” David asked.

”…that day, at his house…his mother gave you his journals…and a white box…what was in it?” Sven finished.

”…well….you see…um….hmmm….erm….” David said, stuttering as he attempted to come up with a lie to cover up what REALLY was in the box (the pacifier, baby bottle, diapers and bottle cleaners).

”Stop…never mind…I don’t need to know. It was secret and his, you two were great friends” Sven said.

”Okay” David replied with a slight sigh of relief. But after that, there was another great silence.

”…hey Sven…” David said.

”…yeah Dave?” Sven asked.

”That day at the house…and even at his funeral…they never told us how he…how…how he died…” David said.

Sven looked at David curiously.

”I don’t know exactly how…butt I don’t really don’t want to.” Sven said.

”Yeah…yeah, I guess your right” David admitted.

”Alright dude, I’ve got to get out of here” Sven said.

”Okay” David said.

”I guess I’ll see you tomorrow?” Sven assumed.

”Yeah, definitely” David assured.

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”So that’s today’s log…definitely something I wouldn’t have expected, but was definitely hoping for. Anyways, the reason why I put so much effort into getting a picture of him in a diaper, incase this piece of paper can wonder why, the reason is…I had this gut feeling. Something told me that I had to get a shot of him…don’t know why or what. Well…like I said before, I began reading some of the earliest journals. It’s weird, because he’s writing about things I don’t remember until I read them…but there also things he’s writing about that I didn’t know. Apparently, he was thinking about telling his parents about him being a teen baby. This journal I’m reading…it’s the one his mother said that he requested that I must have, MUST. It was also the last one he was writing…it is heavily TB/DL related. He writes a lot of how much he’d like to at least tell his parents about being a DL. But that’s about as far as I got. Well, I’ll read it later…right now, I’ve got to change and sleep…”

[Baby Jake]

Entry 05: Tension and Conflict

”At this moment in time, during this time I write this entry, I am not sure what to be feeling…fear and depression are the main emotions that are filling my mind at this moment and time. I’m trying to calm and keep cool, but for some reason, I really, really don’t feel good about this…about what happened. So I guess I should fill in what exactly happened…alright, so a yesterday I, Jason, Sven, Justin, and Logan all had a sleep over my place, which is all and good…but…”

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”So, is everything good?” David heard over the phone. He was talking to Sven and Jason on three-way.

“Yeah, my room is clean” he answered.

“Alright man, so we’re aloud down?” Jason asked.

“Yeah…where is Justin and Logan?” David asked.

“In my house, watching TV. We’re all ready to come on up your house” Sven answered.

“Yeah, alright. Tell everyone to come on up, I’ll be here” David concluded.

“Alright, on our way” Sven and Jason said at almost the same time. Finally after that, they said their goodbyes and hung up the phone, leaving David in his room.

He stepped away from the computer desk that he was sitting at while talking to Jason and Sven, and turned and faced his open closet.

“Alright…diapers are concealed in there…and a few are under the cabinet in the bathroom…” David thought to himself. Then, he faced a large chair, sitting at the end of the bed (think of a living room chair, big, smushy, and comfortable!)…

“And all of my other stuff…is nice and hidden behind there; under the stuffed animals…no one should find them…” David continued to think to himself.

From there, he spent the time remaining sitting on the computer, mostly talking to ‘PaciMat067’ on AIM. But as time went, his friends did indeed arrive at his house, and all packed into his room…

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“So guys…what’s up?” David asked, sitting in his computer chair. It had been a few hours since everyone had arrived, and they had already run out of things to do. They played games on the PS2, Game Cube, etc. They had looked online and played on the computer, now all they had to do was sit around, and watch David’s TV in his room.

“Man…what time is it?” Logan asked. Logan was about the same age as everyone else in the room, same goes for Justin. They were basically no different than Jason, or Sven; just average teens.

“Around midnight” Justin answered.

“Ah…okay” Logan replied.

There was a short moment of silence as everyone thought of something to do…

“SO how about” Justin said, interrupting the silence…”How about Ryan and his little group of dickheads all up in my face the other day” he said.

“Why?” Sven asked.

“I don’t ****ing know man…they are just all assholes” Justin concluded.

”Man…he hasn’t messed with me in a long while” David explained.

“Welp’, you don’t talk any smack on him…freakin’ Justin does, all the time. That’d be why he was probably messing with you” Logan explained.

”Pffft, man, shut up!” Justin said.

“ME?! Man, I’ll kick your ass!” Logan said, picking up a pillow and tossing it at Justin. Of course, they were jokingly fighting.

It wasn’t too much longer after Justin get smacked with the pillow, that he too, picked up the nearest soft object, and tossed it back at Logan.

”Hey!” Logan yelled. Suddenly they both started laughing.

”C’mon guys, not in here” David said, worrying about breaking something. David, not paying attention, looked back at the monitor. It wasn’t too much longer after that that he heard another pillow being thrown into the air, this time, hitting Sven, making Sven laugh too. Slightly aggravated, David turned around once more, unaware of the pillow that was flying straight towards his face. The pillow, smacked him in the face, making even David laugh.

“Alright, that was decent” David said. Suddenly another pillow whipped him in the face. David laughed, and picked up another pillow, and whipped it at Sven. Now, it was war. Sven picked up a pillow, and threw it at Logan, then; Logan did the same to Justin. Suddenly everyone began throwing pillows, and in time, anything they found. For a few moments, they were having a really good time. But that was destined to change…

”Whoa” he heard, coming from across the room. He turned to look, since the room got silent. He turned to look, and found Jason, holding a baby bottle. He was standing by the chair: the stuffed animals were surrounding it, and the box of baby items were scattered on the chair itself. The pacifiers were in plain sight, as were the bottle cleaners. There was silence as David got instant panic. Not just panic, but any emotion that doesn’t feel too good, went through his mind at flash.

“David, what’s up with this?” Sven said, picking up a pacifier by the ring.

Quickly after another moment, everyone in the room began cracking up. Everyone except Sven and David, however.

“Well…it’s…um…my…baby box…” David began to say, trying to conceive a story.

“I bet it is!” Jason said, laughing hard on the floor.

“No, I mean, it’s got a few things from when I was a baby in there…my uh…my mom put them in here so that uh…my…cats won’t tear up the box and get a hold of them, since the cats aren’t aloud in here” David lied, but lied well.

Everyone still laughed, but the tension in the air suddenly vanished, even though David was still extremely nervous.

“Really?” Logan asked, finishing his laugh.

”Yeah…really!” David said.

“Well it is logical…alright…yeah…but it was still a really funny idea of you using a pacifier!” Jason said. Logan and Justin were still laughing a bit, but they got it under control quickly.

Now confident, and calmer, David looked at Sven. He didn’t look one bit convinced. If anything, he looked as though he was just told the world’s most obvious lie. He looked disgusted, and one thing to add to that was the way he was holding the pacifier as though it was an infectious insect.

“Isn’t that funny, Sven?” Jason said, chuckling a bit.

”Yeah…hilarious” he said, faking a laugh. Sven dropped the pacifier back onto the chair. Sven walked away, and sat onto the bed near Justin and Logan. Jason, sat by the chair, still randomly giggling.

”Dude, Jason, it wasn’t THAT funny” Justin pointed out.

David laughed a bit, too: mostly at how Jason kept randomly giggling. But to him, the situation was far from funny at all. He walked over to the chair, and put everything back into the box, and finally put the box back behind the chair.

“Oh and guys” David said.

”Yeah, Dave?” everyone asked.

”Don’t tell my mom about this stuff…” he said.

“Why?” they asked.

“She’ll get really, really mad if she knew that you guys scattered them all over the place. It’d be best if we just didn’t tell her” he finished.

“Yeah, alright” they finished.

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It was now about 3:30AM. Everyone was asleep, except for David. He couldn’t. He was still too nervous about what had happened a few hours earlier. For some reason, Sven gave him chills the way he looked at him. David was extremely cautious and nervous when it came to his being a teen baby. Sometimes too cautious, other times, not cautious enough. But at this moment, he was quietly sitting at his computer, the monitor being the only source of light in the dark room.

“Dave” he heard from behind him. He turned around to see Sven standing behind him.

”Yeah…Sven?” David asked.

“Can I talk to you…maybe in the dining room, or out on your porch?” Sven asked.

“Sure” David answered. He ticked a few things on the computer, got up, and he and Sven quietly left the room. It was a short walk to his dining room, even if all of the lights were off. Finally, once they sat down in their seats, they began to talk.

“Dave, I’ve got to talk to you about what happened a few hours ago…” Sven said.

“Yeah…I figured” David replied.

“What’s the real reason you have those baby things in your room?” he whispered to David.

“I told you why, along with everyone else” David said, trying to convince Sven.

“Don’t give me that Dave, I mean, come on. So your cats won’t get them? Dave, your cats are de-clawed” Sven remarked. There was another moment of silence as David was dumbfounded.

“I bet you’re not even incontinent” Sven snarled. Now it was personal.

“…what?!” David asked, half in disbelief.

“Yeah, I bet you’re not incontinent. You probably just love wetting your little diaper, and sucking on a pacifier like a baby!” Sven said.

“Sven…your being an idiot” David said. At this point, that was basically David wanted to say.

“How the hell can I trust you? You’re probably just like I said, a big lazy and disgusting baby” Sven said.

“You’ve got to be kidding me! What the hell harm is it causing YOU?!” David asked.

“If you were really dependant on your diapers, this would be a different matter. But you know what? I know you’re not; you just enjoy wetting, and maybe even POOPING your diapers, while acting like a child. Grow up! I find it disgusting!” Sven said.

“You know what, you really need to shut up right there. You need to stop, think about how stupid you are being” David began. “First off, you don’t know what you’re talking about. Second off, I am incontinent, you asshole. Third, what I do in the privacy of my own bedroom is really none of your ****ing business” David ranted.

“Whatever” Sven said. “I’m going to bed, I’ll see you in the morning, I guess” Sven said.

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“I really do not understand what the hell was Sven’s problem about this whole AB/DL thing. I mean, so what, I suck on a pacifier! Big deal! What really made me mad was how he didn’t believe that I really was incontinent…that hurts. But I keep thinking about how…ANGRY he was. He didn’t just dislike it, he was seemingly angry that I’m into this kind of thing! What the hell?! Well…anyways, I’ve got to get some sleep…but I hope things don’t turn out bad…but I really do have a bad feeling about it”

[Baby Jake]

Entry 06: Following the Trail

“I cannot believe it…Sven has turned into a total and complete asshole… We went on a hike today, as preplanned since yesterday’s sleepover. We were in the woods near mine and Will’s old clubhouse…which was bringing some old memories back.. Anyways, so we were hiking along a trail…”

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”Are we lost?” Jason asked. He was walking in the middle, between David and Sven.

“Of course not…I’ve got these woods memorized off by heart. It’s only around the corner, and then we reach a steep hill. Travel up it; go a little over flat land, and we’ll be there” David explained.

“Are you sure, it’s been a little while…” Jason said, careful with his words.

“Yeah, I’m sure…traveled it quite a few times…just trust me!” David said.

“…I wouldn’t trust him too much…” Sven remarked, quietly.

“…what?” David and Jason asked at about the same time.

“…nothing…” Sven said.

David was pretty sure of what he heard; he just wanted to confirm it. Sven and David didn’t too much after that, not to insinuate that Jason did either. But the silence was so strange that even Jason noticed it.

“What’s up with you guys?” he asked, breaking the silence as the three walked along the trail.

“Nothing” David said. Sven was still silent, though.

“Um…okay…well, we’re here anyways. Time to climb up, up, up!” Jason said, livening things up a little.

David and Sven looked up at what Jason was talking about. There it was, the hill they were talking about….though it wasn’t too much of a hill…more like a cliff, to be honest. It was a very steep, very bare hill. Trees that used to be on it now laid at the bottom, most broken in half from the fall. The hill was mostly dirt and rock, with some patches of grass every so often.

“Were those trees…on the hill?” Jason asked.

“Yeah…don’t know how though. I guess that’s why they aren’t on there anymore.” David said.

So with that, they began climbing the hill. It took them about 20 minutes to do so, but it wasn’t too bad of a climb. David and Sven had it memorized, but Jason had a lot of difficulty climbing the hill, since he never went to the club house before. But no doubt, he did get to the top. David, Sven, and Jason all walked on the top for a bit. The walked away from the hill for about 10 minutes, until eventually…

“I have to piss” Jason said, walking over to a nearby tree.

“So do I” Sven said.

“…um…have fun!” David said sarcastically.

”You should give it a try sometime, you know, without a diaper on” Sven ignorantly remarked as he stood in front of a tree.

“…what?” David asked, faking a confused face. Truthfully, he was actually extremely nervous, and the second the word ‘diaper’ was used, his heart sunk into his chest.

“You know what I mean. Ever notice how David never goes to the bathroom?” Sven said.

“Um…no?” Jason said, confused.

“Well I did” Sven said.

“…um…congratulations. I wasn’t aware you were gay” David said.

“I’m not gay” Sven said.

“Well, you know, you monitoring my bathroom visits sure doesn’t sound too heterosexual” David explained.

Sven was dumbfounded, angry, and conquered by David’s words.

”Yeah, well you better shut up; I know things about you…” Sven maliciously said, threatening David.

”I’d certainly hope so, it’d be strange if you knew only how often I go to the bathroom” David said, starting to laugh half way through.

“Um…so…how are you two doing?” Jason asked, confused.

“Perfectly ****ing DANDY” Sven said, zipping up his fly and continuing on towards the club house, which could be seen very vaguely in the distance.

“I don’t exactly understand what the hell his problem is” David said to Jason.

“Yeah, I noticed he’s been weird since like, yesterday, whenever he found the stuff in your room” Jason explained. David just shrugged.

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It was a short walk from where Sven and David argued briefly, to the clubhouse in the distance. It was old, rickety, and abandoned…but to David, it was just like he remembered it. There was really nothing in it, it was just a big empty room with two windows built into the walls, but it was still decent. It was rain-resistant, surprisingly.

“How the heck did you guys build this?” Jason asked.

”Me and Will found this abandoned, basically the same way it is now” David explained.

The three sat down, and began to make conversation. But in time, the subject became of William himself…

“…so David…is it okay if we talk about…Will?” Jason asked, being very cautious.

“Yeah…I’d actually like to” David said.

“Does anyone know how he…died?” Jason asked.

“I don’t…” Sven said.

“…nope…” David said.

“But I do know a lot about how he lived…I’ve been reading his journals more often” David said.

”Really?” Jason asked.

“Yeah…” David said.

“How come?” Jason asked.

“I don’t know, honestly…I just kind of found them one day…something possessed me to start reading them. I guess since it’s almost his birthday” David admitted.

”Yeah…I mean, you two were the closest of friends…” Jason said.

“Yeah, at least I had one good friend” David said, looking and snarling at Sven, who was plumped in the corner. Then he looked back to Jason.

“…not that you aren’t” David said not to offend Jason. Jason laughed.

”I knew what you meant” Jason admitted.

“But anyways…doesn’t anyone find it weird that no one knew how he passed on? I mean, it was so sudden, and so mysterious. All of the sudden, he was gone, with no explanation” David said.

“Yeah…I have to agree. But honestly, I don’t want to know. Maybe our parents or just his didn’t want us to know” Jason said.

“I guess…but if that’s the case, I’m kind of mad. I mean, he was our friend. He was my best and longest friend, I think I have a right to know how he passed on” David said.

“Yeah, I do agree. But right now, I think I have to go” Jason said.

“Yeah, we should go. It’s about a half-hour from home, and it’s getting dark” David said, peaking out one of the windows.

All three of them got up, and left the club house. After a quick descent down the hill, they began climbing down the hill. They continued to talk about William. Nothing bad, just all of the good times…

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“Like I said, Sven is being a serious asshole lately. I really am confused about him…but it really makes me angry that he doesn’t believe that I’m really incontinent. That’s just ignorant. But anyways…yeah…I guess I won’t be hanging with him for a little while. I guess I’ll get more of the story done now.”