Why do I even try?
by, 11-Jan-2015 at 06:05 (596 Views)
As some may know I have worked for the same company for 7 years, going to be 8 in May. In that time I spent almost 4 years as floor staff and then got promoted to Supervisor and have since moved buildings a few times and finally landed at a location that I was told was the fastest way to get to Manager.
Almost 4 years and 18 attempts to get said position, I still feel I am no close to my goal. It is the most depressing thing that the only thing that seems to be holding me back is the interview. Because as much as I prep and as much as I build myself up and get the confidence, as soon as I sit down and the questions start, it all goes out the window.
The company cannot give me any further explanation of what I need to do, other than keep doing what you are doing. It really sucks that I have had 5 general managers 2 seniors managers and countless regular managers all tell me that I would do well in the position, but never give me the opportunity to prove myself.
But what sucks even more is each time I fail an interview, my performance for said interview stays "active" for 3 months, that doesn't mean that I can't apply for positions in those 3 months, but it means I don't get a chance to try to better my answers until those months are up.
My most recent interview, I got to do with 3 different GM's and a guy from the corporate office sat in as well, but he only sat in because he knew me and he actually really likes me and thanked me for my persistence and sticking with the company for so long even with all the ups and downs I have had. The only thing that pissed me off from that interview was when I sat down the first thing that was said was "We are interviewing you because your GM asked us too."
I mean what the fuck kind of message does that send to me? Either way just tonight the position opened up again at the same location, I feel like the person they thought they were going to get fell through. But I seriously don't even know why I try, considering how it makes me feel each time I am rejected.