by, 20-Nov-2014 at 23:46 (576 Views)
Good evening Bean,
I really appreciate your sharing so much of yourself with me. For your sake, I wish you could have shared earlier but not for me.
I wont try to answer in detail, but I do want to share the following as a first response. You know if your feelings are for the same gender or not and I trust your judgment. That being true I do not believe it is something you decided anymore than I decided to be as I am. I am glad that society in general has become aware and accepting of same gender attraction.
Also I am glad that you will likely have the freedom for marriage. If you are not gifted with celibacy, you need the companionship and support that marriage alone can provide. No, I don't know how to put that together with Scripture (but the sin of Sodom was not homosexuality!). But I believe that the God of life is also a God of grace which covers you as you know yourself to be.
I think you may be helped to know that your aunt Sarah is gay and that she and Beth have lived in a marriage relationship for over 17 years.
You've not indicated if I should share this with grandma (or anyone else) at this time. So until you do I'll not bring it up.
As you consider God and Hell, remember we try to understand matters in human terms. I don't believe in a Hell of eternal fire. But God whose love is not accepted seems to promise loss beyond our ability to understand. Note, he does not force us to love him--our choice. A young doctoral student in a seminar with me in the Philippines came out of a leading Communist Chinese family. She had come to the Philippines from Hong Kong. She expressed her sense of life beyond human existence from her experience as a nurse--her original training. She said she saw babies born and old people die--life so significant she came to believe demanded more. This became the basis that led to her Christian faith. You handle life in your agricultural learning and practice--that life is no more accidental than your own, it seems to me.
Bean, you have to live truthfully with who you are and what you understand. As you seem not to do, don't quit thinking.
You are and always will be loved.
So if you read any of this, I hope you may have found something that is interesting or may be helpful in your own life.