I'm being used :(
by, 07-Nov-2014 at 19:29 (1295 Views)
If I tell a joke or even intervene, people flat out and say (why did you even ruin this) or (say something that did not involve you?)
Because it's my life and my body, I'm allowed to do whatever the hell I want. But even if I try to impress or crack a smile, I fail at the slightest bit of moments. I do not understand why some people have to be hard-headed. I can't impress the world (I know) but I also don't have to be acknowledged for ruining something. I already have rivals and I don't need to have more.
On top of that, I feel like I have been used by some people, feel like people are trying to control me, being asked by users if they want to be my daddy (Kinda creepy especially if I don't KNOW THE PEOPLE) If I say "no" they get pissed and not talk to me...um ok that'll do. Told to do this and that but if I ask them a favor they are either too busy or doing something else. One week later, "I don't want to do it" that straight pisses me off.
I found out a hurtful truth I've been living with for the past 5 years last night that my former friend was only my friend because he was bored and wanted to use (my food and play my games) He tried to come over this weekend but I caught him after he would not answer my phone calls for the past two weeks. He decided to pull a hate card and run it on me. I ended the call and just sat on my bed thinking about some stuff.
I am going to ask ADISC people and be honest with your opinions. Do you actually value me as a friend or are you using me as some numbers in popularity because my life means more to me than just a number or a burnt burger crust. I'm not your son, i'm not your french fry, and most importantly I'm not your pokemon. If you actually value me as a friend, please tell me why because I am tired of living with lies, eventually they get old after awhile.