by, 05-Oct-2014 at 05:03 (1418 Views)
So, hey, there's this blog thing I can post in to record my own random thoughts that don't call for a general discussion thread. Hmm. Hi Blog!
Anywho, I'm going to be traveling for a full month starting Monday. It's within the US and I've traveled both further and longer before, but I also feel weird about it having gotten used to wearing my diapers pretty frequently. I'm not planning to bring any diapers with me on the trip. I'll be staying with people I don't know well the whole time and that's one thing I'd rather not have to explain, lie about, or justify. The whole thing is maybe a big deal (and I'm being purposely vague because I have some actual concern about media attention if I drop any details about it, as unlikely as it is to be found on an ADISC blog).
But anyway, it's discomfiting to feel nervous about it because I'm going to have to stay totally dry for a whole month and I'm not super happy that getting used to wearing diapers has made me more nervous about taking big trips. On the other hand, it makes me think that maybe this will be healthy for me. Once I get there, taking a month break from ABDL might be a good chance to refresh, along with being in a new place, meeting lots of new people, and maybe making some new friends. And if all does go well, it will be reassuring that the ABDL stuff is only a small part of my life and one that doesn't have to affect anything else I want to do.
So, I dunno, just musing I guess. I'm a little worried that I'm going to be depressed. Not just cuz I won't have diapers, but also won't see my friends, the family that lives near me, or have much opportunity to play games, watch Netflix or do most of the other stuff I normally do to unwind. It's likely to be a very busy trip, maybe 7 days a week working except for breaks that I schedulef or myself, and living with people I don't know well also means being on their schedule and having to socialize pretty much all day.
*sighs* To anyone who reads all this disorganized musing, I'm pretty sure that I'll be fine with the whole thing, both the work and making a life where I'm going for a month. I just always get nervous before traveling and worry about everything that could happen.