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Yesterday I saw my Therapist as I usually do once every 2 weeks. I was assigned even more homework (Sighhhh interacting with people is hard...) and I'm now tasked with "Initiating a conversation with at least 2 complete strangers." It's not something I'm looking forward to doing, but I suppose it's going to help me overcome my SAD (Social Anxiety Disorder).

We had yet another break through to! I've been made to feel like it's not okay to be me, that the people around me in real life, have pressed me into putting up a facade around others. And that I feel that I can't be myself for fear of being judged. We also identified a key factor in what contributes to this, My parents (Of course.) They have compared me to my 2 older brothers my whole life. Hell right out of diapers the comparisons began, the earliest I can remember was this: "Why do you keep having accidents? Matt never had any accidents when he was trained!" Things like that stick with you, instead of nurturing me, my parents well for lack of a better term abused me. They abused me mentally for years, they've made me feel worthless and made me feel like I'm not allowed to be myself.

I think that's all for now, if anyone can offer any advice on overcoming Social Anxiety Disorder, please do comment on this. I would love to hear from you.
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  1. egor's Avatar
    Good Job.

    You might try just saying Hi in some of the visitor post of people that make post that you read. That would be a simple place to start.
  2. SnowBlitz's Avatar


    Quote Originally Posted by egor
    Good Job.

    You might try just saying Hi in some of the visitor post of people that make post that you read. That would be a simple place to start.
    Thank you Egor, that is sound advice!
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