First Blog Ever and I'm Discussing My Sex Life
by, 14-May-2014 at 21:18 (3490 Views)
Well, I am new here and I have debated on doing a blog on occasion just as sort of a place to write down ideas and vent about things. My life is not bad by any means, in fact, I have a great life so as I vent, I don't want anyone to think I am really down or feel like I have it worse than anyone else, I just need a place to vent. Also, in case anyone reads my blog posts, I tend to ramble and rant so my posts will probably be long. So for my first blog, I am going to rant a bit about my sex life. Might be typical or might be to "racy" for my first blog but its something that is a problem for me.
So I am married to the most beautiful girl in the whole world. The worst part is, I have a big sex drive and she doesn't. I have fetishes and she doesn't. We are 100% compatible in almost every other way but sex. So here are my issues. I end up wanting sex a lot. Like I could have sex 5 times a week easy and she wants sex only once or twice a month. So we have discussed the issue multiple times, and whenever I bring it up, she shuts down. She doesn't like talking about it at all and I ask what she would want to make it better for her and she doesn't know. So we discuss it and eventually I get her to agree to a compromise. Usually we agree on once or twice a week and maybe once a month I can indulge in a fetish (always bondage because diapers are out of the question). So the first week is occasionally successful. We may have sex that first week or two and then its back to normal. I will occasionally ask if I can tie her up or something and she always says no. When we discuss it all, I am honestly trying to compromise and am willing to give up things if she will try for me but it all is futile. I bought a we-vibe a while back hoping that would help her enjoy it more and its great when she has sex but after, no, she doesn't feel like it for a few more weeks. It is such a struggle for me because I honestly "need" sex and that release more often or I begin to stress out constantly. Sex is an amazing stress reliever. So I try to compromise and all I want in return is her to try more for me. I want to be able to tie her up, I want to have sex with her normally, I want to just enjoy that closeness but it rarely happens. Most of all I want to tie her up and add in diapers but I know that won't ever happen because they "gross" her out. I don't understand how they gross her out because I'm not talking using them in anyway but I guess. I won't push it on her because I hope someday she will decide to indulge me because she knows I like it but until then I struggle in silence because when I bring it up, it becomes a fight and I'm tired of fighting about it and I'm tired of not gaining anything when we do fight about it. I'm at a loss and the more frustrated I get, the more I need sex. Its a vicious circle that I hope will end someday but until then I will continue to do what I've always done and just deal with it.
Thanks for reading all that if you did. Like I said before, my life is great, and my wife is amazing. She isn't cold hearted or anything, just genuinely doesn't care about sex and has a very small sex drive. I understand and honestly, I will do anything for her and if that means giving up sex, I would in a heartbeat but I wish she would do the same for me and try somethings for me. Anyways, thanks for reading this!