Approaching a year for some anniversaries.
by, 11-Apr-2014 at 21:19 (206 Views)
I'm still her in a sort of cat's cradle sensibility. Had begun as "here" instead of her but my fingers sometimes tell that which brain defers to fingers on. After all how much of "our" gender is in our mind's eye.
Dysphoria in a momentary safety zone's re-appraisal of all I am and am not. I've accepted that which I can be and cannot be balanced against what if's siren calls. Near deaths can do that.
Wondering if I'd died realdeath - would I now be a female baby? Blinks-shakes shoulders a bit. Grasps it's time to get back to mundane real work. Funny part- In either male or female self- I've always been attracted to females as lovers both emotionally and genitally. And no homosexual male fears or panic about wanting women with external prosthetic to be euphemistic. After all - being female and penetrated by a female is well within my erotica,