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Just a small rant

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I have noticed something about myself that I hate. I hate that I can't say to no to people. I can't simply say no when someone texts me asking to hang out. I'm a pushover and I hate it. I've gotten into several fights with my friends about it before, it comes down to how clingy I am. I latch on to people and hope an pray they never leave me, sometimes I find myself saying "You're worthless if you say no to these people who've stuck by you thick and thin" I hate that I think that way...

I wish I wasn't such a damn pushover. I've nearly relapsed into old habits several times the last few days, I find myself longingly staring at calloused patches of skin on my hands. It takes everything in me not to start picking at them, sometimes it gets so bad all I can do is grab onto an inanimate object and hope the urges pass. They vary in strength, sometimes it's just a whisper, other times it's a roaring lion ready to devour me once again. I want to give in to them but I know better. I know that no matter how weak or useless I feel, there are people that care about me. Even if they are across the world from me...
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  1. KimbaStarshine's Avatar
    *hugs for my daddy*
  2. SnowBlitz's Avatar


    Quote Originally Posted by KimbaStarshine
    *hugs for my daddy*
    *Hugs you back*
  3. JazzBaby's Avatar
    *hugs*
  4. selv14's Avatar
    One of the skills in life is learning how and when to say no. This is easier said than done, but ultimately it is how much you value your friendship/relationship with the other party which determines how far you should give in.

    Best wishes, and a hug from across the world
  5. ArchieRoni's Avatar
    Here's an utterly stupid shortcut that might be useful practice: rule of three. Don't do anything three times in a row. If you've been out with friends twice, say no the third time and take a little personal time. If you've skipped a couple things, make sure to go hang out.

    Please use common sense and a considerable grain of salt when applying the above.
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