Autism, Cerebral Palsy, and being an Adult Baby...#60
by, 09-Feb-2014 at 03:17 (396 Views)
I will admit to more feelings of being lonely and misunderstood as an Autistic with Cerebral Palsy who is also an "Adult Baby". It has been 1 1/2 months since a major misunderstanding erupted online where I got trashed as a person, by others who were "posing" as another Autistic, who was female, whom I do know is a Lesbian and an "Adult Baby" like myself. It was the female Lesbian Autistic "Adult Baby's" disability support persons who did the interfering and "destroyed" the friendship. As far as I have been able to logically deduce, I have found no further trace of this other Autistic person online on the Internet in the last 1 1/2 months. It seems that she has been permanently cut off from accessing the Internet ever again.
I live a life of loneliness and isolation, which hardly ever seems to abate or change. I do wonder whether I am slowly being driven insane from the severe social isolation I experience. Only about 6 hours per month, do I ever get to sit down face-to-face with other autistics like myself.
I would enjoy having another Autistic adult my own age coming over to my house to interact with me, but as I have mentioned in an earlier weblog entry or two, such a thing seems rather "unrealistic". As my intermittently physically violent and psychotic Mother has screamed @ me for 47 years straight, from the time I was age 3 to age 50 before she dropped dead, that I "never had the right to any friendships or companionships with any other hominid primates - ever".
Where do I fit in?
I suppose I fit-in nowhere...