Well, the Zoloft doesn't seem to be kicking in
by, 05-Dec-2013 at 03:30 (804 Views)
A month ago I abruptly left my living arrangements that were griefing me a great deal to find myself feeling as depressed and confused as ever. After witnessing something unfold with a fellow ADISC 'sister' (I'd hope to think & would be honoUred and what they were going through with their RL family it led me to question whether I acted rashly by running out on my mother & brother and taking up with my dad & stepmom who have told me more than once that I am loved here unconditionally - yet at the same time I wonder 'if they only knew' and I can't shake the feeling that I'm just using everyone who shares the same last name as me.
Meanwhile, my whole life is tied to my mother's house - the address on my driver's license and where I base all of my doctors' appointments from, and to complicate things my name is on the mortgage, then I have my current situation where it's a bit cramped and I find myself inwardly annoyed at my dad from time to time but I've been welcomed with open arms. I'm just feeling I can't get any momentum in any direction almost literally since I don't have any of my tools or toys with me, yet if I were to go groveling back to my mother's I still couldn't use any of it there and if I were to retrieve any of it that would make a sense of being final. At the same time they may be truly tired of me since they asked about getting my birds to me, and why wouldn't they be imploring me to come back and work things out? I get the feeling that maybe I painted myself into a really bad corner...