Having a tough week!
by, 18-Oct-2013 at 05:49 (653 Views)
Well this is yet the next section of my therapy postings, so consider this a warning and read on at your own risk.
Well as I blogged last time I went through the move from hell. I have been attempting to organize, set up the new house and get things unpacked. I also have to deal with life at the same time, but with my depression and ADD I am losing the battle of juggling this many balls at once. I have been attempting to do the best I can, and follow my therapy/grounding skills to keep and even keel.
I have done some real humdingers this week. I built two fire wood stands and lined them with plastic slip sheets to weather proof them. I fastened the sheets with a staple gun. The one I used works real good, but if you look at it looks like it is built backwards. I picked it up without looking and proceed to put a staple into the palm of my hand.
I went to my therapy appointment today only to realize that my last one was 9-17 and my next one (I forgot) was 11-7. I just thought it was today and showed up. The receptionist looked at me like I was crazy.
I have been having a lot of racing thoughts lately and have not been able to clear them. I did my grounding and three points keep coming up. I did all of the steps that I am suppose to go through. I realized that there was two that I could do nothing about and looked at ways to adjust my actions and thoughts to alleviate the stress. The other thing came down to a pet peeve that I have dealt with/developed since I was young. It involves friendship and the feeling that I get that after a time I get treated like a freak and shunned. I talked myself into feeling like it was happening again. So I wrote a good by letter to two people and told them that I was leaving the friendship by the road. I thought it had been over a week since there was no reply to a letter I sent, and was very upset that I had not gotten any feed back. The problem was that I have been losing track of time because my life has been revolving around this bloody move. So the issue was that "over a week" was only 4 days. Of course the one person is very busy and had not had a chance to respond. (Again to that person I wrote that too, I am sorry for my well thought through hasty decisions. Thank you for the forgiveness.)
Anyway, life moves on and I need to take time to think the full problem through.
I just need to put my thoughts into a different media (like this) to help clear my mind.
Thank you for your time reading this if you got this far.