still alive...but i hate my life
by, 27-Sep-2013 at 20:53 (583 Views)
So, I just got off the phone with SSA for the SSI stuff…Apparently the approval process for Disability is 3-6 months…and even after that there is a 5 month waiting period before payments start. So assuming my application goes through on the first try (immediately and approved next month) without a hitch - I wont be getting financial help until March at BEST. My income stops dead at the end of December (assuming I’m granted the unemployment extension).
I fucking can’t do this… I just…I can’t. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I can’t stop crying.
On top of all that - this morning was looking at apartments all morning and anything cheaper than $800/month is in a horrid area with high crime rates/awful management. I have no money besides Unemployment which stops dead on Dec 28, i can’t find a job because I’m OVERqualified for receptionist positions, and UNDERqualified for Tech jobs (F’ing certifications or rather lack of) - and when I do manage to get interviews - as soon as they find out about my physical issues (cant stay standing/sitting from more than 2hrs at a time, semi-wheelchair bound, cant lift things over 5lbs, and hypoglycemic) the interview stops dead.
I can’t afford to move
I can’t afford a flatmate
Getting a flatmate or a full-time job (no matter how short a time) both disqualify me for Disability
I can’t find an apartment that I can afford that is in a safe area
…to top all that off, I got off the phone with my mom who yesterday was gung ho about me going for Disability (even encouraging me to take my wheelchair), and now shes saying “suck it up, stop crying, and do something about it. I had the same problem when i was out of work for 9 months and I got through it.”
JUST WHAT THE ---- AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!
…and NO, BY THE WAY - you have not gone through the same ---- I have! because YOU had over 10 years managerial experience to fall back on when you got laid off for 9 months, and you DON’T have the physical disability ---- I have to deal with and you didn't have to worry about your unemployment stopping!
I’m going to go run errands and try not to end up dead via car crash…