Trying to find myself
by, 07-Sep-2013 at 03:00 (386 Views)
It seems lately for the past couple of years since I was in High School taking some time off from it and obtaining my G.E.D. I've been in a rut. I have not been happy, not my normal cheerful self, depressed a little bit and not really making much friends or hanging out with the ones I know.
Working in and out of retail stores. Mostly supermarkets which suck by the way. The stores are really run completely backwards. Getting yelled at for stupid things and on top of that lots of stress for very little money.
I have been feeling like my abilities have not been tested one bit. I need a challenge. I've been stressing out alot, my twin sister who is the same age as I moved out and I'm still here stuck, wishing I had a place of my own.
I realized that I could not do this with the job that working at now. I registered and got accepted to the local community college. Being 24 I feel completely awkward as most kids my age have graduated already.
Being a Freshman in college i'm hoping to find myself and a job that im interested in hopefully. My associates is Laser Fiber Optic Technology with a bachelors of Civil Engineering I love it so far even though the math is super hard.
Being in college hopefully will allow me to find myself and be in a position to be on my own soon! I look forward to it. Its currently a little difficult with my ADHD but i'm thankfully getting help from an adviser. who is helping me get more organized and focused. Its hard for me because I stopped taking my medication willfully because i don't like the way I feel on them. My focus does suffer in class though.
Been going to school monday-friday and work everyday with one day off. its been causing alot of stress along with the O.A.B. with that adding extra stress but hopefully all the tears and effort pays off!
Looking forward to a better future!!