Autism, Cerebral Palsy, and being an "Adult Baby"...#4
by, 28-Aug-2013 at 16:18 (512 Views)
I apologize for my own narrative "self-analysis" these last few days...
As an older "Adult Baby" with disabilities, I am as a person who has a sense of "balance" to meeting my "Adult Baby" desires/needs.
Bedtimes and Nap Times are when I "fully regress into "infancy".
it is late Wednesday morning and a short time ago I woke up, got myself cleaned up, diapered and dressed for the day.
Getting out of my bed is physically difficult.
Many times I simply lower myself onto the floor holding onto one of my side-safety rails, and I "bunny and crawl" like an infant in my flooded nighttime diaper and plastic pants into the bathroom to clean myself up, diaper and dress myself.
For me, it is "safer" to sit on the floor to dress myself and to put my AFO Leg Braces/Sneakers on, and I then "roll over" and "bunny" and then grasping my Loftstrand Crutches, using my "arm strength", I push really hard to "stand".
Probably there are persons who do not like this, but in my bedroom, my mattress does not have any "sheets" on it. I simply lie on a re-usable bed pad over which I place a disposable bed pad.
At the "head" of my bed, I have my "bedtime" soft plush cuddle friends.
One of my soft cuddle friends, is my "Baby Dolly" friend. Her name is "Precious". I hug her all night, every single night and she "protects me" from "Childhood Abuse PTSD Memory 'Bad' Dreams".
In one corner of my bedroom, I have a big collection of plush cuddle friends.
Lots of soft plush horses.
Plus other assorted plush cuddle friends.
Another part of my "little" side, is that I am an avid collector of diecast toy cars and trucks and toy guns.
Every day, when I can, I "take time to play".
Growing up with a psychotic mentally-ill parent, my Mother, lots of times, I simply "could not take time to play", when she was screaming at me and hitting me.
When I play with my toys now, I am "very happy".
I do not care what anyone else thinks of me when I mutely play with my toy cars and trucks and my toy guns.
If other people have a problem, it is "their problem".