Deciding where I stand Blog
by, 20-Aug-2013 at 23:53 (400 Views)
Reading the recent posts I noticed that some people feel like AB/DL ruined their life. First of all I can't begin to tell you how much I appreciate the honesty. It is an Eye opener to where people can end up forgetting who they are.
I have not been on in a while due to the fact that I have been busy and been thinking about who I am at the same time. MLP has been one of the biggest things that has helped me learn from mistakes in the past. I had problems accepting the truth that I hang out with the wrong crowd. At the same time I ran people off with my bad habits that make communication hard.
I am not saying that I am leaving but I want to be sure that this is going to be good for me to have moments here and there to have child like activities. Having my Pinkie pie in my life has helped me cope with stress and broken relationships. I will always have that to fall back on. With this said I am trying to prepare myself for when a stuffed animal is not enough.
I sent a request to the Adult babies and faith to try and see if I can learn all I can from those who are Christian and AB/DL too. I have not gotten a reply from them yet and it has been a while. I need a place to see my words because that is when I understand them the best. In my faith I need to be prepared for when the storms come because I can't just run and hide under a blanket.
Thunder is perhaps the hardest part. Knowing when it is headed my way is scary. Lightning is a bright light that stuns my ability to see. I will never be overtaken but there will be times that I am broken. If I rely on a foundation built on sand I will have to rebuild from the very beginning. There is no perfect ground and I will have to cope one way or another.
Truth is; being grown up is required to make hard decisions. Knowing when to face them is the wisdom that holds my home together. There are times when I need to regroup my abilities and those are the times when I have to tell myself that it will be OK. If that involves AB/DL then I choose to do it but I can't let AB/DL be an escape because the only escape is my home.
Weather there is a life after death or not I need to have faith. So long as I breath air I am going to go through trials. I may be a Christian but there is more to it then the label. I do not expect anyone to decide on a religion lightheartedly and I ask that you think about where you stand because that is what I am facing right now. How far is too far and where is my escape? I ask you think about this because there are times you need to slow down and listen to what is around you. If Christianity is not for you then choose something that keeps you from falling apart. I will answer any question you have about my religion but please understand that I am not looking for a debate.
I choose to not force my belief on anyone but I ask that you have something that you can grasp when you need it. I also ask that you do not criticize me for my answers. If you ask a question that I feel needs to be answered at another time I will tell you.
The worst thing that I face at times is realizing that my enemy is suffering and it hurts me beyond reason when I see it. My Boss got fired and the assistant got fired today. My closest friend got the brunt of the hit and was fired for her decisions she made. I have no ill will toward anyone least of all my worst enemy. So I ask that because of what I said in this blog that you understand. In conclusion I ask that you don't decide on how you live your faith because of how I live but because of my faith that I have.
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