First day diaperd at work
by, 05-Aug-2013 at 21:48 (294 Views)
I wore a normal diaper that had tabs under a black shirt and overalls. I should have taken a picture but ended up forgetting. The first few hours at work were the most nerve wrecking as I figured out that a diaper with tabs has a hard time staying up. They fell down in my overalls and every time they did I wondered if other people figured out I had a diaper on underneath.
Through the whole day I never had anyone ask if I had on a diaper not once. I wondered though and I had the sinking feeling that some did. I work at a sheltered workshop were some people are IC and some that were IC are in wheal chairs. I wish I had my pinkie pie to take a mental brake but I am happy I have her in my arms as I am typing.
I went to the bathroom just about every time I had the chance so that I did not have temptation to use the diaper. I want to try and get use to the diaper first and then try and wet. I need to practice taking one off and bagging it before I do it at work. That means local restrooms first.
By lunch time I can say that I have relaxed because I thought to myself if some one could tell if I was in a diaper they did not really care or they did not want to embarrass me. I had times that I walked funny and I knew I was because I would correct my footing to try and walk normal again.
After lunch on the last break of the day I wanted to talk to the one person that knew I had a fetish with diapers but did not know I made a choice to use diapers as a connection to my soft side. I wanted to ask her if she could tell if I wore one but she never asked so that was really encouraging. At the same time I wanted to know for sure. I also wanted her to know I am doing this to try and lose my fetish. I want to be turned on by casual stuff and in a marriage that does not need it.
When I got to her she was outside smoking with others and I did not want to bother her and I really did not want to blow my cover if no one really knew. I swallowed my pride and faced the rest of the day.
Out of this whole day that passed the only question that any one asked me was why I started to wear overalls. Truth be told There are many reasons why I wanted to and diapers just happened to be one of them. My parents live on a farm and I have a work shop in their barn that I craft things out of wood in.
As a last note I want to admit something that I am not proud of. For a long time since high school I had problems urinating standing up and often times had to wait several minutes to pee sitting down. Before I started wearing diapers for leisure I wanted to have a way to not have to try so hard to pee. When I was done fantasizing I wanted to try and make it easier because of my problems urinating. I won't go into detail but I tried to put a catheter in. I ended up bleeding a little out my urethra. I ask those of you reading this don't do this to yourself because without the proper care you could cause major damage to your system.
I am going to tell my mother and my doctor about this and I am hoping that I may not have screwed anything up. It was two weeks since I did this to myself and I am lucky I am not in major pain. I endured pain in my crotch for a little while but that went away. I don't think I could explain to anyone just how important it is not to find a way to IC. So I ask that you try 24/7 in diapers first and work your way up to a comfortable wetting and then decide if you want to continue. Give it time because this is the way you learn.
I also ask that you understand that writing was not my best subject in school even though I love to write fiction. I am looking into getting better with practice and with some one I know who can help me get better. I hope you understand. I would appreciate any comments or questions you have be about my story or who I am and not about my writing skills just yet. I will let you know. It will be better by the third entree.
Best wishes Pebble.