by, 19-Oct-2008 at 03:29 (827 Views)
So right now I feel the worst I've felt in months. I'm alone, and I don't know what to do, so I'm posting here.
Today started out good. I had planned to meet with someone I had met online through a friend. Then I did what I always do...I ran. I cancelled and moved it tomorrow. So aside from some shopping today, I've been here, alone. Even in the stores, I'm by myself. Even when I'm with friends, no one is around. Everyone is out, enjoying themselves..couples in relationships. I just need to get through today, tomorrow will be better, it usually is. I've never understood more than I do now how someone can need a drink. Need a smoke. Need to get away from it...mind wander, escape. I'm sorry for this ramble, I just need to type.