Being A Diaper Lover. My fears and thoughts.
by, 12-Jul-2013 at 19:07 (624 Views)
It's the worst feeling in the world not being able to tell people who you fully are. I'm exhausted fom hiding who I am from my closest friends and my family. Sadly, something that's a part of me is a component of my personality that I must lock away from the general public, fearful of the rejection and backlash, the confusion and unwillingness to understand. I can't tell my closest friends, I can't tell my mother and father. While I pride myself in branching out with my diapers lately, wearing them outside of the house and ect, it's sad I'll possibly never be absolutely truthful with anyone. That this is my "dirty secret." I know I shouldn't feel regretful or guilty for my fetish but I do. Sometimes I just wish I could be normal.
How can I possibly have a relationship without lying to my girlfriend? Would a future partner ever accept this part of myself? Maybe it's my mind overreacting but I don't think anyone could accept this affection I have for diapers. Our love for babyism & diapers is so misconstructed and misunderstood by the general public and that saddens me.
I hope for a day where I can comfortably tell people who I really am. While diapers are not my whole life, they are apart of me, and I wish so much to be truthful with others.
I don't wish to have such a sulking post but I really just feel so depressed sometimes. And I know these thoughts shouldn't bother me. But time to time they come up in my head and they do cause me unwanted, conflicting thoughts.