I am ending this alcoholism of mine. Hopefully.
by, 06-Jun-2013 at 23:15 (514 Views)
All right, here we go. Sucks to say, but I'm an alcoholic. Not as bad as some, but also worse than some. I feel compelled to drink very often, and my tolerance is grossly high. I can drink any one of my friends under the table, and keep doing it. When I would vomit, (this has not happened in a long time) I would continue to drink afterwards. I have woken up in it, too. Only happened once, though. Stairs and I are not friends, tell ya that much. Last time, I almost fell over the railing, and would have gotten badly injured had my boyfriend not been taking care of me. I hate it, I'm like a slave to this drug. But you know what? It's my fault, and only I can help myself recover. This isn't fun. It's been going on for six years now. The longest I've gone without drinking was probably four days- a week tops. That is pathetic. It's a struggle, but I know I can do it. IF I really want to, and I don't know if I do. I have made a drinking chart for my wall, which is just like a baby's potty chart. So when I don't drink, I put a nice, cute little sticker on it. Sounds stupid, but it helps, seeing as I'm AB and also need, need, need to stop this. So far only two are on it, but they're consecutive, and believe it or not, that's big process coming from this one.
I don't expect feedback, just wanted to get this out. It's a shitty time when you *glug glug glug* aaaahhhh.