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C-PTSD is killing the rest of me

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Hi all.
I have neaver blog'ed before.
I don't think I am going to bother with correcting my dislexea this time.
I am relay not in the mood today so apoiges.

So what is C-PTSD? This is C-PTSD.
How Child Abuse Primes the Brain
for Future Mental Illness

This last weekend I have come to the understanding
that PTSD has NO cure. I will have too just lurn to live
every day of the rest of my life crippled for the inside out.

The thing is ... I don't think I can let myself do that.
You see untill now I belived that there was a way to get
back the person I was before all this. But there isn't. There
is just coping with it day to day.

Understanding your "triger"
and then spending every waking moment
you have to avoid them.

But after 30 years of doing just that I am so so tiered.
I can't stand knowing there isn't going to be an end before I end.
I am so enraged that people respoasable will never know what
they have done to me. But knowing my brain is damaged is
more than I am willing to bare.

I am not sure what I am going to do now.
But I rather die that lived crippled inside.


  1. DylanK's Avatar
    Let me be the first to say you are not alone, PTSD may have no cure but with good friends to look out for you it is very manageable. We here at adisc are here for you.

    I know it's a hard suffer with mental illness but it's no reason to give in, like you I suffer with dyslexia, but making the effort and knowing it's right can make you feel better, and the same goes with other things like depression, I imagine the same might be true of PTSD if you work at it

    If you want to talk feel free to email me. - the Adult Baby / Diaper Lover / Incontinence Support Community. is designed to be viewed in Firefox, with a resolution of at least 1280 x 1024.