C-PTSD is killing the rest of me
by, 30-Apr-2013 at 02:16 (380 Views)
I have neaver blog'ed before.
I don't think I am going to bother with correcting my dislexea this time.
I am relay not in the mood today so apoiges.
So what is C-PTSD? This is C-PTSD.
How Child Abuse Primes the Brain
for Future Mental Illness
This last weekend I have come to the understanding
that PTSD has NO cure. I will have too just lurn to live
every day of the rest of my life crippled for the inside out.
The thing is ... I don't think I can let myself do that.
You see untill now I belived that there was a way to get
back the person I was before all this. But there isn't. There
is just coping with it day to day.
Understanding your "triger"
and then spending every waking moment
you have to avoid them.
But after 30 years of doing just that I am so so tiered.
I can't stand knowing there isn't going to be an end before I end.
I am so enraged that people respoasable will never know what
they have done to me. But knowing my brain is damaged is
more than I am willing to bare.
I am not sure what I am going to do now.
But I rather die that lived crippled inside.