How to totally eliminate barriers of self-acceptance.
by, 12-Mar-2013 at 03:28 (2088 Views)
This isn't actually an instructional blog on how to do this. This is just something I've come to realize along the way.
I still have a burning shame for this fetish. I have strong intuition, and I cannot shake the fact (or feeling, however you see it) that a sexual attraction to diapers is pretty weird. I'm attracted to women, don't get me wrong, but this fetish makes me so unhappy with myself that I can't find enough self-esteem to put myself out there in the dating scene. It's been a monkey hanging off my back for a LONG time.
I've been on a major soul-search for a while, and certain events have come up that force me to shift my foundation of confidence under myself, and not the family, as it was before. It's been going pretty well, and I've used spiritual knowledge to help put things in perspective, which definitely helps. I thought the knowledge would CURE the fetish, and disregard it as an illusion, but it hasn't. Well, it has, and it hasn't; I know now that the fetish is nowhere near as true as sexual attraction to women, and yet, it's still something I have to understand. So I've delved right into it in the past week or so.
My main concern for getting over my self-acceptance issues lies in what other people think of me. Whenever I think of diapers, I also think "OMG, what would THIS person think??!" (usually a woman I'm attracted to). And I get ashamed and I suppress the feelings, which I know is never a good thing, as it messes with my head. How to solve this issue of not concerning myself with others' opinions I have yet to figure out.
Any tips would be great if you've read this far!