It's been a looong time...
by, 18-Jan-2013 at 06:12 (366 Views)
I forgot my password to this site, and I just now found it out. It's nice to be back on here, as I'm having troubles with this whole fetish thing.
I don't know what it is, but I never really have a clear state-of-mind when it comes to this fetish. I usually feel nothing but guilt, guilt, guilt, and for no real reason, but then I have these shining epiphanies where I just know it'll all work out and to not worry. I realize after coming back on here that, number 1: I stress out way too much on this fetish than is good for my mental health, and 2: I just need to balance stuff out with this.
The way I usually look at this fetish is in a way that makes it a burden, like I HAVE to satisfy the monster so it can leave me alone. But I know that's not a good way of looking at it. The thing is that I knew this a long time ago, I just tend to get so wrapped up in negativity that I forget it, and that this is pretty much okay to have. I'm trying to stop a binge-purge cycle, which is never fun, but after I'm done indulging tonight, I will try to smooth it out a bit.
Thanks for reading my ramble if you've gotten this far. Any advice would be cool as well!