A risk worth taking (1)
by, 17-Nov-2012 at 18:09 (415 Views)
I'm not usually a risk-taker, honestly speaking. I shy potential risks, even though the gain might be ever so tasteful. Right now I'm describing the normal me, yes, but there are exceptions, a few very notable ones. But in most cases, I'd just follow my head and its reasoning - that's what's worked best this far.
"What about what your heart tells you!?"
- Cute little romantic
Oh, cute little romantic, you're adorable. I love you in a non-serious kind of way, I really do. But oh, for once you're actually correct! Even though I usually follow the ideas which are dictated by my mind, I have now made a decision that defies my normal reasoning. Gosh, I feel so giddy. You see, right now I'm studying, and I will be with my class for a little short of 5 years. They're a lovely bunch: friendly, interesting and most important of all - they all have personality. I've always had a firm stance on inter-classroom relationships; "No sleeping with classmates, chump!"
Well, that was then. Now I've gone and fallen for a pretty little thing. Aye yes, the soft spot on my heart. Third date (Oooh, how magical!) is happening, uh, I think wednesday. That'll be fun.
Honestly though, I'm not sure if it's a "date", or if we've even had one at all! We haven't really called it that, and I sure as hell ain't a mind-reader yet, so it's hard to tell. Also, I haven't really told her directly how I feel - nor has she, so it's all a bit of a gamble. But I kind of like that, it's fun to just take chance once in a little while. Not knowing what's really right.
So, are there mutual feelings? Don't know. Have we even dated at all? Hell if I know. I'm not stupid though, the signals are there. She sends them, as do I. They thing I don't know is exactly whether or not she's willing to take the same risk that I am. 5 years of constant exposure is quite a handful... but I have a feeling that I'm doing the right thing.
This is really happening.
Also, on a not so unrelated note, I gave up smoking yesterday morning. Withdrawal soon followed and now it's tearing me to shreds. Good God, it feels as if my body is attempting to kill me.