Ordered for the first time.
by, 22-Apr-2012 at 06:10 (374 Views)
I just ordered two bags of bellissimos. I feel strange...
Of course, I'm excited. I'm also scared. This is the culmination of ~14 years of waiting, wondering, experimenting, what have you. But honestly I thought I would be experiencing stronger emotions at this point. I've been waiting for a long time! Maybe I'm just tired. It is 1 AM, after all.
I just bit myself on the hand to make sure this isn't a dream. I'm not going crazy, am I?
I don't know how to feel right now. Is that normal?
...Kinda funny that it's almost exactly one year after I found this forum that I ordered real diapers for the first time. Heh.
I don't even know why I'm writing all this. I realize it's incoherent, irrelevant. I doubt anyone even cares! I know I wouldn't really care about the obscure , semi-lurking almost ex-member's feelings.
I guess it just feels good to let *someone* know exactly how I feel. I know I should be able to talk with my mom at this point, but it's still pretty awkward. Maybe that'll come with time. I sure hope so...I think.
I know I should have a nice last line to tie this POS together with, but I can't think of one.
Thanks for reading.