Happy. F-ing. Thanksgiving.
by, 24-Nov-2011 at 21:12 (433 Views)
So yeah, I've been out of the suicide ward for a whole 6 hours now, and I've just been informed I have to be out of my house by noon tomorrow.
PERMANENTLY. I'm being kicked out, evicted, by my own mother. Apparently her social worker says I'm not good for her health, so I have to go.
I have no job, no gas, no money, and nowhere to go. I'm about as depressed as I've ever been in my life.
Surprisingly, I'm NOT suicidal. I'm just... empty. A lot of curse words are going through my mind, but aside from that, pretty empty.
Nobody really cares about me, nobody that matters, nobody that can help or support me. You all can take 5 seconds and post a little comment saying "Oh, poor Desco, I'm so sorry", but when the chips are down nobody ACTUALLY cares. You people don't know me. I don't know you, except through the limited interaction we've had on this forum.
No, this is not a joke, this is not a gag, I'm not making shit up to get sympathy. My fucking family is THAT HEARTLESS!!!! If you don't believe it, join the club, I can't believe it either.
I appreciate everyone's support, but it doesn't really do me any good. I'm fucking homeless.
I don't know what to do guys, I really don't. Things are going to get very very ugly in about 18 hours.
I'm off to start packing. Don't bother commenting, I probably won't be on the internet for a good long fucking time.
I don't know what it is with my life and holidays, but they never seem to mix well.
Happy fucking Thanksgiving ADISC.
Desco, signing off.
Jakey, Pete, I'll miss you guys. Wish me luck, I'm going to need it.