What do I do now?
by, 08-Sep-2011 at 03:31 (449 Views)
For the past month my Mom has been out of state, she has been training for her new job. She has come home tonight, I was so excited to see her....She however was not so returning of the gesture.
Some how the conversation quickly got turned onto why I had been hanging around with my Dad. My Moms exact words to me were that she did not care if I kept a relationship with him. Despite all the lies that have been told to me by my Dad, he is still my father and the only one I will ever have and being as the month that my Mom was gone was really lonely, I gave my Dad a call.
My Mom started yelling at me that she could not believe that I was hanging around with him and she starts going off on how horrible of a person he is and the only reason he is doing it, is to show to his new soon to be wife that he is a good Dad. About 5 minutes of yelling and she storms off. Feeling like complete shit I go and crawl into bed.
Couple minutes later my Mom is back at my door screaming again. She starts asking if I met my Dads new fiance. I know better than to tell her the truth, but being a bad liar I said nothing. Her response "Oh my god, you did!" I tried to explain that I did not know it was going to happen, this was a bad idea as she had apparently called my Dad and he told her that I agreed to meet her. I at this point I said "what does it matter?"
This started a new wave of yelling that she feels betrayed and she hopes that I have fun with my new family. emphasis on the word "new" that I now had a new Mommy and brothers and sisters. She said she would not be coming back from Chicago, I was the only reason she came back to Colorado, but since I "betrayed" her, she saw no reason in staying. She wants me to get my stuff out of my grandparents house (where I planned on moving into, since our house is foreclosing) and wished me luck on finding a place to stay.
Last thing she said to me, she has stormed out of the house and drove off. I am still in tears. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say. I am hurt beyond what I have ever felt before. I always had such a good relationship with my Mom and wanted one with my Dad, but it seems I cannot have either. I just want to die right now, I don't feel good, I can't see straight, My head is killing me from crying so hard. Please what do I do?